Welcome to Joanne's Dorm.
It's called Joanne's Dorm because it's really about the space in my life who I do my living and sleeping rather like I did when I was at boarding school which was a place I felt loved and safe in.
Do note everything on here relates to legal adults only and is consensual
This Blog can be seen as a extra to my main SFW Middles blog cos it's the same ol' me that writes them both and it's the case you get links on this account to it because I, Joanne is not a one trick pony.
I write about my life as a middle - a full life that covers people, events, interests and relationships as experienced and lived and that blog covers the more SFW side of it
Link: The World of Joanne chan
Indeed I was thinking of either flattening or parking it for posterity but as events in the world have taken a twist I reactivated it but with a twist, being written from the current affairs interested but still reading comics and watching cartoons middle side of me just like I was when I was 12.
I also came out openly as a middle in this life on it which was super brave of me.
Link: That Boarding School Girl
What I and others mean by being a middle is quite simply the act of being very much like a tween or early teens child except for being legally an adult and come out of you not as an Age Play where you act out a role with more adult bdsm mindset nor is it being temporary in it as an Age Regressor.
I have Age Dysphoria which is different from although it may include activities in age regression because I am permanently in the headspace as a child, not relating to anyone who is over the age of eighteen as another adult even one who regresses some of the time.
It is as if mentally and developmentally I am a child who can only relate to you as child looking for her needs as a child to be met and does not whilst in that space feature anything sexual or about power play.
Indeed actually I'm not sexual at all feeling very much child-like.
My life is very much child-like not least for the learning/developmental disabilities that leave chunks of me functioning at that level finding much of the adult would goes over me and because I would be in some situations very much out of my depth, actually with a similar vulnerability to a child.
I love playing with dollies, making things from play-doh, lego, colouring and hugging my plushies apart from reading junior fiction having a low reading age and music.
This blog differs from the other one because it does go much more into my feelings and emotions some coming from my past, some are about the stress and strains of my life now where I talk about them and how I can better manage the emotions I feel.
My life is very much child-like not least for the learning/developmental disabilities that leave chunks of me functioning at that level finding much of the adult would goes over me and because I would be in some situations very much out of my depth, actually with a similar vulnerability to a child.
I love playing with dollies, making things from play-doh, lego, colouring and hugging my plushies apart from reading junior fiction having a low reading age and music.
This blog differs from the other one because it does go much more into my feelings and emotions some coming from my past, some are about the stress and strains of my life now where I talk about them and how I can better manage the emotions I feel.
I find the act of writing out those thoughts aids in developing a better sense of personal awareness as they do impact on those things that lead to being disciplined and even if not, can still have a negative effect on those around me.
It encourages me to take proper ownership of how I feel and act so I learn to take more personal responsibility which is something I have struggled with.
This blog also goes more into the world of Caregiver and similar relationships with other Adults I have in my life, traditional school based remedial learning to help with my difficulties with basic Math and English with uniform and the role of corporal punishment in my life as a middle which why it's flagged as as NSFW as some of text and images just are although they're more 'mildly adult' than full on adult as in sexual which isn't what this blog is about.
In connexion with spanking images they are drawn from commercial 18+ sources and are used solely to illustrate the spanking method and that they are in uniform AND DO NOT show me actually living in my life style which is known by over twenty people personally.
Being a Middle means in simple terms we're in a more upper tween/teen frame of mind with similar needs and are not functionally fully adult which is where people such as Caregivers come in.
They provide by agreement the structure and guidance you need to function as well as you are able to and this for me involves the use of corporal punishment for disciplining me whenever I'm being dishonest, disrespectful or disobedient.
My attitudes and behaviour do leave a lot to desired at times and are connected with the way I was brought up and also not fully maturing so in a way you have the same carry on with me as you'd have with a child. Because of host of issues I do not respond at all well to reasoning or other more adult kinds of disciplining getting more and more confused as word jumble up in meaning and time leaving me more agitated.
I respond much better to the more on the spot short sharp shock of a spanking with some guidance and aftercare to help shift what lead to the spanking instead.
This is why my Caregiver spanks me: To help my change my immature behaviour and as part the means of helping me to grow up which I need to do.
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