Like
naughtysusi, I'll also write this a bit unconventionally partly cos I
like something different and partially cos some of the ideas readers
may have simply don't apply to me.
I'm
writing this several years on from beginning what may be called
becoming a schoolgirl crossdresser although if you were to look far
enough back into it, it's been going on right back into my
schooldays.
You
see, Crossdresser means differing things to differing people and more
often than not it's used to identify a person who likes presenting as
a gender different from that on their birth certificate but who
doesn't feel or wish to be that gender. I'd like to say if that is
you, I'm perfectly fine with it and glad you're enjoying the
experience.
However
in another sense if you are recorded as being one gender but feel you
actually are of another then until the point that it is changed, then
strictly speaking you are crossdressing.
I
became a schoolgirl crossdresser therefore at an early age even for
brief periods while at school thanks to the girls that helped me
change uniform but never really got more started on it as in putting
together a full uniform until I'd left formal education.
That
uniform has a strong emotional resonance to me as something I
desperately wanted to own, take care of and have to wear as that girl
I felt so while part of my exploration centred around the more adult
big girl, this whole schoolgirl side which had never really gone
away.
So
it was around a period of major profession related stress that I
started off with experimenting with netball skirts and tops, the
whole girly sporty thing in part cos girls sports were what I loved
to play, when I was able to talk around folks into letting me be on
the team and that I wanted to play in traditional girls sports kit.
I
just found the whole experienced dressed as such such a great
relaxation not least for feeling I was being a part of the denied me
that it was not long before I started looking more into the regular
daytime schoolgirl look.
One
start point into that was more adult dark goth dresses not least the
pinafore type which I wore for a period before encountering online
communities of adult little girls and what you might call
recreational school based role playing sites and establishments.
Encountering
them lead me more into looking into full replica uniforms, that's to
say the tops, outer garments such as skirts, socks and smalls that
were and in some school still the proscribed have to wear brands.
It
also lead to an examination in my mind of what sort of age range the
schoolgirl I wished to present as was so seeing I felt more middlish
-around the ages of 9-12 than the high school sort this lead me to
something like UK Juniors uniform comprising of red sweatshirt, grey
pleated skirt, white or grey socks with plain t shirt and regulation
school smalls and a blue pleated zip fastening games skirt.
It's
in this uniform as a schoolgirl, I've been out with
littles/middles enjoying real life interactions being and playing
that schoolgirl I always wanted to be finding life much much more
enjoyable.
A
few days ago spurred on by a local charity, I went through my
wardrobe and noticed those early items that lead to being that
uniformed schoolgirl, some that don't quite fit, all seldom worn
today and they are to go.
As
I wrote one an entry or two here at EP, the idea around having actual
schoolgirl daytimes dresses has been with me for a long time and as
those Goth variants were to go together with a few other things it
was time to decide what to do about it.
Because
I so wish to wear an actual schoolgirl pinafore as uniform, I decided
to get myself two, one grey and one black to replace them with
together with a black pleated elasticated skirt.
Everything
for this schoolgirl crossdresser is turning full circle, that girl is
being out as herself as being dressed as such online, the adult goth
transforms to schoolgirl outgrowing that attempt at accommodation of
the inner child, shreading that attire.
She
has become the schoolgirl increasingly in her pinafore being the
little she really is.
