The one before Xmas

It may be coming up to Christmas as we start to sort out writing cards, organizing  presents and the when bit of visiting people such as my aunts but this time of year is one when much of my still a child side comes out and ups the tension between that and how adult people expect you to be except of course really on the inside I've just not grown up developmentally that spills over to my attitudes and behaviour issues.

I don't self regulate well.

I want to be given the sort of spankings that were common place when I was (officially) younger instead as at least then things were over with  and my behaviour was better in public as well as private.