Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Sense of place

One of the starting points of where things went wrong for me was really in what you might call my sense of place in the scheme of things when I was much younger.
In my scheme of things I was an exact equal of everybody around me including my parents, teachers and other authority figures having the same power and authority as them, muscling in on activities and conversations.
They could not as far as I was concerned deny me that and it had to be and more times than not even my parents would not so any delineation was not policed I could say just 'borrow' something from them without asking and as it would happen something might be damaged, then they'd shrug their shoulder at the 'accident' rather than getting on to me about what I was even doing having it without asking first.
I wasn't a child in their relationships and I didn't see me as one.

 They needed to pull me up, reminding me they and they alone were my authority figures and I was subject to their authority being expected to conform, disciplining me strictly when I did not  so I learned this and how that also applied to other sources of authority.
I needed to be taught who I was.

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