Thanks

Sometimes you heave to go backwards to go forward in being the best you you can wither or not it's really more like last week and being retaught  your behaviour and standards or it's really about finding who you really are after years of people pleasing.

People tried to push me down a level of presenting that had others assume I was a fully mature young lady when in reality my head was hardly just in its teens and my interests while sometimes crossing over were coming more from that of a young child- a girl who still badly needed guidance and the space to play.

I had less need for lifestyle magazines never mind political publications and the like and really rather more for comics with short stories, jokes and playthings like dollies to be encouraged to get involved when we had visits leaving the real grown ups to have their own conversations.

I'd like to this opportunity to thank everyone at GT,G.I,  IK,DDlg and FA for your concern following recent events and how they have left me feeling, be they comments in chat, on posts or face to face.

I was  pleasantly surprised to read one blog entry that addressed that topic of balancing your little and big lives an individual was facing that had a direct quote from  me upon my return after a few days so thanks Jake for that.

I'm slowly de-stressing and beginning to think more around how get to where I feel most comfortable and resolving some longstanding issues that compound if not of themselves create them.
Thanks again,
Jo
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Drifting back in time an some

Autumn has ended so thoughts go very much towards the Big Event of Winter, Christmas and the countdown for it in a couple of weeks time having gotten over all the Bonfire night stuff earlier on this month.

Perhaps it's not so surprising your mind drifts away from what it should of been concentrating on perhaps getting cocky and lippy into the bargain with it 

It's hardly surprising given my own gender past there's a big chunk of me that both feels being in a more junior role treated as a child of my era was dressed in pinafore dresses and even being in some sort of school would suit me.

A hand spanking followed by the cane for "childhood offences" while in that role leaving me tearful would over time help better train me.

Maybe it'll all happen one day.

Team Games

One sport I liked at school was Netball

Going on with the ball under pursuit.

 She goes to score!

 Ready to throw the ball!

I love ball games running around as part of a team.

School corner time

 

I wasn't always a good girl when I was young, truthfully its where much of this started, and I can recall the times where apart from being smacked in front of the class, afterwards I was made to kneel facing the wall where dried rice had been applied.

I looked very much like this by the time I'd done that corner time, very sore with indentations on my knees.

Footwear in the past

There are bits about my my early school days that stick out.

 One is that all the girls had white socks usually knee length on as in that era the idea of a school girl in trousers would of been unthinkable as their parenst were only starting to demand the right to wear pants in the workplace.
The other was the 'classic' T bar shoe with a  buckle fastening as girls shoes didn't have laces except say plimsoles.