Getting by

I saw this manga drawing a few days ago and liked it a lot although I'd of written the first speech bubble as "I started out as a guy" had I been any good at drawing because our girl is showing sensitivity to how she is perceived in her new role among the other girls.

I think one of most important things is having respect for your inner girl, that's to say you don't put her in crass or otherwise crude situations if you wish to hold your own in the company of those born and raised as girls from the outset.

Those of us who started out as guys can't just demand the right to accepted and be granted it; we may have to earn our right to be wear our uniforms as part of being regarded as the girls we truly feel.

It's also important to understand females have spent ages fighting discrimination in the home, in school and in work.

Girls of our sort arguably need to both accept and embrace that same struggle fighting with our genetic sisters  for equal treatment in the workplace and supporting those who even in today's world get a bullet in the head for supporting girls education as fundamental human right.

If you can, learn about those struggles and support our genetic sisters in practical ways.
The path to our acceptance isn't easy but we need to take responsibility for making it as smooth as possible.

A word from The Bear

Hewwo. I'm Theodore the IInd I am. I came into Joanne's life today this magical day called Christmas to add a bit of sparkle in

to her life as she just loves teddies bears giving the most loveliest hug to us bears.
I was at a bit of a loose end at the bear home when she told a woman she really wanted me for Christmas and you know what? Not once did she peep at me until today! 

I'm hoping she'll have some great adventures with me.

Regards Theodore II

1,300th post

Do you know something? This happens to be1300th post here at The Dorm which is quite a milestone (not a Millstone) in its history.

 Indeed it almost never really got started between pressures from my career and having an early version of a blogging tool that was used for more mainstream "big" posts  and if you really want to know the truth, actually I'd of much sooner just had this one cos it's everything about me.

When I say everything, I mean starting with having this very much childlike (but not childish) little girl side that has never gone away , enjoying the simpler things of life like dolls, teddies, engaging in children's games and interests.

It's taken me to different places, meeting some remarkable people who share the same side mixed in with their more groan up side all trying to balance both sides of themselves and sometimes with having partners too.

It's also the only blog that deals with an important side of my life quite openly, that I am transgendered and how that taps into issues from my own childhood, having an inner girl child and has lead to me presenting as that female both at home and increasingly in the presence of others, something that has helped me an awful lot.

Our community, the alg community, has supported in its own way, me in all of this.
In this blog I do talk from time to time about things such as music, books and anime which have been great interests of mine for a while but in a different way, more from how they tie into my past and the child within me which sometimes by accident has occurred elsewhere as ultimately I can only be me wherever I may post.

To mark the occasion of this 1,300th post we've taken a break as I was editing iD tags for some music files that were messed up before loading in the micro sd card. We all know that stuff often needs sorting.

The countdown before CatMas continues next week.

Space age living

The week it had to be said  had a turbulent start but ended quite well all be considered gaining a few fans at one place, seeing a misunderstanding led disagreement get to the point of accommodation and finally late autumn weather came to that lead to some photography which is more my idea of fun than dealing with the likes of the DWP which has been central in the last few weeks.

People often hear the groan ups talking about how we live, the type of environment they plan and how that affects things and this taps into some of things we recall of the past.

For instance in the late 1960's and 1970's the way children lived was changing rapidly brought on by both the idea of keeping more green spaces and also using less land for housing.
One famous children's tv series caught it well.

Yes that is a lift to the flat Mary lived in with Mungo the dog and Midge the inquisitive mouse in their town. They had a flat with a balcony that served as their garden and if they wanted more space then they'd go the communal park where fairs and other things go on.

Here's Mary playing with the bright colourful building blocks.

 I often harboured the thought they were trying to prepare us to this more isolated existance where everyone kept themselves to themselves, a far cry from the sort of life my folks had.

For one thing you couldn't just play in each others gardens or on the street, just in doors in the park away from the neighbours and the other is it remove the wonder of seeing the natural environment with it's calming effects.

Special friends

Much much cooler this week thank goodness as it was really affecting my internal system a lot so it is a time perhaps for some more cooler thoughts around that which is both a need and thing in my life even if perhaps less than before.

Really for me at least, having "that talk" is just a basic from the important angle initially that you do give consent to being spanked whither it is on each separate occasion or a at all times unless you indicate clearly you're not "up to it"  in which they can find another suitable punishment

It also should cover the "how" - the use of any implements - the way any number of strokes may be given as it is too easy to risk injury especially permanent injury if you don't and the "why" such as in what situations you will be spanked.

In some situations a third area for "the talk" might be to examine what you did, how you feel about it and after the person lets go of any anger agrees with you to give you that spanking so they are in full control of their emotions and so can do it safely. 

With love to all those trusted Adult friends in my life who are “Special Friends” sorting me out when I mess up. I’m so glad you’re doing this for me.

Giving me that spanking we talked about helps. 

What is it all about?

 

Unlike some in the Community, I never coveted anything other than a younger image simply because I never felt it and that's quite apparent when it comes to things tomorrow where nothing grown up is taking place. 

All I wanted was the old-new childhood experience I didn't have at the time, to present in the ways I preferred, to play with and play more girl-like games while being to prepared to play a bit more "rough" with boys where I enjoyed what they were doing the odd time and be referred to as that girl, following here own interests rather than being told "No, you cannot do that cos it's only for girls".

So for me the arguments won for girls to play football ("Soccer"), do more physical things previously reserved for boys are things I hold with even if they were not part of the period I originally experienced and I see no reason why if I wish they cannot be part of my own Now.

There are some who think when we are together everything should be as it was but that is something I really cannot agree with.

Things moved on for a reason.

Do we really belong here?

There will be a pause next week I think simply for being away and so not with chromebook and you really cannot type up droves of posts for blogs to cover that period while getting ready to go away with all the packing and the regular weekly activities and that.

There is one topic I keep coming back to which is around age identity and from that what really is appropriate because if you are very much a person to whom sexually or other kink based interests apply (like bdsm) then it's quite straightforward.

You may role play an age in a context, say DD/lg reflecting a point that for you you wish to return to in the context of that and any relationships but you still ultimately see yourself as, and identify with, your age as recorded on your birth certificate.

You are also quite likely to have the adult adeptness to handle adult content sites connected with that.

And that is okay.

I seldom if ever feel adult, although I know the law says I own consequences for actions I commit as one and never identify as an adult (I could have written this in my teen easily).

I struggle with tasks that require adult levels of comprehension and seeing what is coming next so does it make sense at all for me to have a presence on any adult site that has lead to issues around bullying, presumed overt sexual interests and what not?

In the ideal world, I will be blunt and say, No.

The problem comes for me in that a small portion of me, a portion that in childhood featured the threat and delivery of spankings that still runs through that perception of how I see me is a topic that (understandably)

today cannot be mentioned in child safe places (heck references to it often get removed in republished children's literature).

That only leaves adult sites as places I can talk about and with people and then sometimes they won't allow you to reference any however briefly that occurred as a child at that time and we'd all agree mentioning that of actual children in the modern world isn't right (and attracts bad sorts).

And those places are the ones I struggle with, cos beyond this one subject, I really don't belong in scenes that going by any assessment of my emotional intelligence would show I'm too young for.

I'm just wondering if really leaving such spots for good might not be the most sensible thing for someone like myself.

Tidying up the past and a nod to the future

 

After a better weekend at least as far as the weather goes with sunshine and pleasant warm temperatures we are back to cool and decisively damp weather with it bucking down outside as I type this.

So you might well ask apart from vibrating the walls and floorboards with heavy blues influenced  music have I been doing?

The answer has to be sorting out chunks of the main blog which having a long eighteen year history was rather messy in places from the days of "Treacle" the legendary Windows XP desktop that run some sites as if you were running across a lake of it, intermittent connections and very limited use of images of any sort.

So posts lack graphics that would of helped, sometimes posts never got made as the connection conked out on you even though I have in diaries the ideas I had planned for that week and the odd post needed an update.

I've spent the time working on that across the week, a bit at a time, old diaries out with paper to sequence them in the way they were meant to be back then and it looks great talking about a variety of things that mattered then and differing ways now still do.

Posts here have been a bit different for a bit, going more with a hotline to emotions, thoughts and feelings journaling than the past simply cos I feel the need to just let things out between the more everyday stuff of an eternal adult school girl.

And that feels better.

Times past and present

I've a little time to kill today so I thought I'd work on this weeks entry tonight instead of leaving it until later and I'll start of by thanking those of who read and remarked on last weeks entry.

One recurring theme from the last seven days has been how you can be transported back in time by such things as rewatching tv shows or  hearing and  maybe discussing such things as music as you recall people, places and events from that period that link in with your childhood. 

There's a phenomenon people call the 'Earworm' that enables to you recall the sounds and tunes when they are heard again even if it may of been decades since you last heard them. 

It may even be one reason people listen to and collect recordings from the past apart from the joy listening to music can bring.

I had a number of those moments this week listening to Boom Radio hearing tracks I hadn't heard on radio for ages and going into a different world.

Then talking some more around the subject of schooldays and the notion of being a schoolgirl with a few people in a more personal way proved interesting for the similarities in what we get from it - being the child, the love of uniforms and structure, finding an inner peace and when we first realized we were different than our peers.

The observant will note its no coincidence the tops are just like mine cos this is the most comfortable in my own skin I can feel and these days it matters so so much.

Game over

 Everything seemed perfect.

A new life, a new school and even some new subjects to learn.

The facilities were excellent, you'd never had your own locker before

But then you realized you were in this little game

a game for littles like you

and you'd scored a six out of a hundred

and a hard spanking.

Dear reader

Hi peoples.

I woke up with this idea for a post cos the next scheduled one would be a in a few days time but before I went to bed with Theodore, I noticed something on the Dorm Blog I want to talk about.
The first thing is while I've been doing my Math schoolwork this week, we have had a grand total of 18,814 views since the blog was started and in the last month 2,014 which is a lot of views.

People have many reasons for writing a blog, some being very much with the authors own needs such as making a dairy of their lives, interests and important events getting a great deal of satisfaction in reviewing them as time flies.

Well, that's partially true for me but another reason for writing a blog is to better inform people about some interest or aspect of your life because many do not understand it or worse still think they do on the basis of sensational stories in magazines and the popular press.

 For me, it is that I wish people who encounter this blog randomly, to understand what being an adult little girl is about, like it's not  seedy, a dirty little secret, a threat to society or worse still Children's welfare.

It's an very important part of a everyday responsible life that you're engaged with that is stacked with childlike innocence, fun and a refreshing spontaneity. We also have mainstream hobbies and  a sense of humour!

As well,  many of us contribute in different ways to making lives better for others by solving scientific problems, making things people like or helping people navigate complex personal needs.

That's why having people stop over at this blog as well as other peoples too is important because it helps to break down these erroneous preconceptions so having good viewing figures matter to get the word out.

Thank you dear reader for stopping by today and if you haven't already please either spread the word about this blog or consider following it.

Getting back to the beginning

 

What this blog has been all about has at times got a bit confused as sometimes bits of my life have come to the forefront which may of been important in some respects but left the wider picture somewhat overshadowed.

At it's heart is confused, mixed up adult child who is still trying to navigate her life when most of her peers managed it decades ago who is fundamentally a a good girl who does get a bit stroppy and agitated because she find understanding the world and its often unspoken rules very hard going.

She may make bad choices, act in ways that require her to be chastised but she is not bad, she wants to do better and with help can do better.

Her heart is in the right place, she has  an innocence and purity about her that others can often read incorrectly because they lack that, only seeing intent where with her there never would be any.

Indeed you could say they undermine her very poor confidence by the game they play and how they keep her away from the things that help her meet her responsibilities and leave her feeling bad about herself.

Jo is not bad - just a good girl needing a helping hand.

Getting the balence right

 

I'm slowly catching up after this long super hot period reduced me to a puddle of inactivity as it was so hot I struggled to even concentrate which as we all know was never my strong point.

I mean I could of got a degree in not concentrating and otherwise not paying any attention to anything although the usual way of dealing with that might of been too much for a Grown Up too as everyone seems to had struggled so it's not just an adult little girl thing!

She's showing a look I sometimes do, that of the "When is this gonna stop?"  look as you just carry on until think I've got the point with the sniffles, attempted apologies as your bottom is burning.

Sometimes you just have to go to that point to get us to make the change.

Respecting limits is sensible but you need to keep your senses open to gauge when you got far enough as to underspank can be as bad in its way as to go overboard we just cease to really take anything in.

My Beliefs on school uniforms

School Uniform & The Girl.

This is for anyone interested in age regression and the use of school uniform in this lifestyle… This is not for minors or non consenting adults.

This also is for those who may be born or assigned as male who do not wish to transition full time such as cross dressers or others such as feminine boys who might prefer emulating the look but have no desire to be that girl.

Pronoun usage assumes female but of course where appropriate can be switched to male (he/him).

I am a firm believer in getting your little girl in the right mindset, and what more could be better then dressing her in the correct clothes for her age group she is… I think the key clothing item in her wardrobe, should be her school uniform… Personally I believe this shouldn’t be kept for special occasions.,but to be used for every day wear after doing her adult activities or even on days off, as well has for punishment nights and weekends…

Uniform & Rules

Now this is my personal preference so by no means is this the same for ever care giver out there however you can use this has a guideline to build your own uniform around and rules if you are a little or middle on your own…

Uniform.

Skirt……(Jersey, skater, fully pleated)

White blouse…(long sleeve)

Jumper… (long sleeve)

Tie…(The colour is up to you)

Socks… (Ankle and knee)

Underwear… (briefs mini plus high leg, vests, seamless croptop and a T shirt bra)

Footwear… (flats no heels)

Optional extras:

Tights… (60+ opaque tights, wool tights, only from October to April)

Blazer… (The colour is up to you)

Pinafore Dress. (September to April)

Gingham Summer Dress (April to September)

Top: Summer gingham dress, socks and knickers.

Below: Pinafore dress,blouse, tie, socks, underwear and shoes… With a good strap to boot. 

My personal favourite colours are grey , charcoal and navy blue… And green yellow tie or blue and white tie… But these are my favourites, but you could also use them….

So what rules would I have??

My rule are fairly simple:

Hair tied up in a pony tail, plate or pig tails.

No heavy makeup.

No nail polish.

One set of studs per ear.

One ring per finger.

Simply chain pedant.

No thongs, g strings or adult underwear.

I’m a big fan of keeping the girls uniform has current has possible. What do I mean by this? Well if the girl goes out in public she isn’t going to stand out to much so they feel in step with the times and can easily blend into the environment .

I hope you find this helpful when planning or thinking about a uniform.

The role of uniform within being Little

While trying to control an urge to have Mr Putin severely caned for events in Ukraine I am continuing to gradually recover from this prolonged period of ill health while monitoring things like my blogs.

An interesting thought was left regarding the suitability of school uniform when it comes to spanking littles was amongst one I saw recently and if you think about the wider topic of what as littles we wear what does actually come into it?

Clearly there is some which is which is more around play where practicality might come in such as leggings, skorts or shorts in just playing around on the floor pushing objects or say making legos or perhaps a spot of planting things in pots.

Then there's more party time which is more about showing off your looks whither it is a pretty colourful top and trousers or a dress which may be a in country influenced print or something very much frilly.

And then we come down to uniform which does seem to be popular.

Perhaps a part of that might be by wearing it more than any of the others were are not just casting off any adult looks but openly embracing a whole acceptance of doing what "the grown ups" have told us.

We're happy to in that sense submit to it because of what we get from when they are in control which is to let our littles most child-like side free knowing they will pick up the slack and be that grown up as "teacher", principal or parent stepping in.

That to me is a compelling reason for littles to be in uniform and in that context for some many resumption of uniform goes with spanking whatever may be agreed between all involved because to be a little implies we need discipline that is provided and that from that we need and deserve punishments that are very much juvenile in spirit.

The traditional uniform affords the easy access for the delivery of a firm hard spanking to be delivered with little we can do other than show our contriteness as we learn from our mistakes.

Chilling little style IV

 The evolving notion of uniform here has had some makeovers since the start of Covid.

 A new grey traditional pinafore of high quality with length adjusted to look more upper junior than "young lady" at a school for older girls was got as some of the regular ones didn't quite fit right  and I was conscious of it.

 

Underwear was changed to maroon gym knickers and the odd white pair in comfortable cuts.

 

While no good for "stealth" dressing some traditional pereline white socks were bought for get togethers aided by having actual children's sized feet so at least while there I am more like a younger schoolgirl.

Being little Wednesday

Hi it's the what's Jo gonna post Wednesday here edition after a few concerns about an Aunt of mine who had Covid and having quite a laugh in littles chat on Tuesday.

 First off of the bat, Dad got a build a bear jacket for a bear and gave me the hanger expressly to put on the my door handle which kinda signifies I'm a little.

The other is I actually love being at the shops and helping out in the kitchen with mommy even if I have tomboyish streaks as its fun to make food and it's pretty important to know how to fix your own if you don't want to living off tv dinners and the like which aren't that healthy for you.

Learning what is what, dates on foodstuffs and what you can put together is pretty important so why is rocket science seen as more important than domestic science?  Don't those people eat???

Why not tie that in making that a wear your pinafore dress time to help bring out the more feminine side of me while we're at it?

Because the kitchen has been seen as the province of generations of women doesn't mean men shouldn't help out stacking the dish washer and that boys ought to help out too even though naturally we're eager to do what our mommies do and they need to show us "the ropes" so we can look after ourselves and any partners we may have

I also found out the name for the problem I have around hearing and being understood - it is apparently Auditory Processing Disorder - and it does tie in with developmental dyslexia which why it may of been overlooked when I was younger.

Thoughts on Years End, 2020

While I normally have an idea for what end of year posts are like on my other blogs, this one for some strange reason never has one so like last years post could really of been any day of the weeks and sometimes I write something more like on my other blogs.

Really this blog is about a number of things rolled into one but they all start from a baseline that I've been restored, perhaps more accurately never left, the mindset of the schoolgirl very much of and in her time.

In a way that may be hard for the younger woman to understand, there was less of a difference between the world of the nineteen thirties to fifties to that of my own era as while some things had changed and the world was changing, much would not until the internet, electronic gaming and the smartphone took hold in the two-thousands.

Our world was simpler, we were less 'adult' in our teens, still playing using our imagination and making things.

A world of that, Enid Blyton, authors who wrote girls school and pony stories coupled with the sheer bliss of wearing a traditional pinafore dress for a variety of reasons touched on here and on the other blogs works out so well.

In fact with the messy messed up Covid world now you could say that really was more of help to me than much else although another side of that still in as schoolgirl mindset and headspace is I'm impulsive and easily lash out.

Having reliable adult authorities around to help dissuade me  usually helps and normally I'd spend time with them for some tuition in everyday skills and remedial Maths and English as much as them dealing there and then with any issues with old school spanking that was in my childhood not that it was requirement so much of a rerun of the "If you stay at your cousins, they treat you as one of theirs", keeping me on my toes.

Covid did put a stop to that although I hope next year it can resume as old school parenting with spanking does help me be the best me I can, done with love.

For me it's never been about d/s kink stuff coming from a regressed past rather than play acting a scene.

Here's to a better pinafored and glowing New Year.

Things the muggles don't say about Covid

 

Covid has made many things different such as meeting up with other littles with the event for early November more or less off although I suspect the person who is organizing it doesn't wish for that that so much they haven't formally said it.

There are others who haven't been able to get to things such as schools for adult littles to go back in time, learn and play with the structures they were brought up in and others who find the anxiety around it with perpetual changes in rules and routines so difficult to cope with that you are wound up, prone to lashing out they feel the need for adults to spank them as it's the only way to keep control.

But of course the rules around Covid have meant many of us haven't been able to go to the adults we normally would who'd do this for us not least here with swaths of the country subject to no person outside your household being allowed indoor contact with another.

I could really use a good firm bare bottom spanking right now.. 

Are you paying attention?

 t remains a weird old world beyond this blog and we've been going really quite a long time, longer than perhaps you think.

It's origins run in a outwardly gender discussion blog I established in the earliest days of "Treacle" the original Stone tower pc running all my internet needs and finding Blogger, the Google blogging platform as a place for talking about gender issues and being a sissy when the original blog was centred on music, photography, travel posts and the arts ignoring all of that.

Thus I work though my at times conflicted thoughts around gender identity here trying to keep things free from stuff I'd seen get other blogs shut down apart from talking around my emotion regulation issues and spanking. 

This blog like the other is showing signs of being affected by events simply because a part of this life that I normally write about is on indefinite hold cos you can't meet up with anyone who isn't a part of your own household as as I need round the clock care I need to live with someone who provides that as much as the other chunk comes in though other people in my life on the littles/cp side.

That whole approach to it from the way you are physically as well as psychologically handled  when I cross lines comes in from them and when with the amount of mental stress around currently you do get to the point of lashing out say, I do miss being put back forcible in my place as a adult child.

I suspect when eventually this emergency is all over a good number of us will need some help coping the changed world but at least I can dress as sissy as I like with few people needing to see it on the street.