Missed opportunities

One thing I had always wanted to do as a child was to be in scouting because in my muddled up way I had long felt I 'needed' to belong to something and to be be subject to the rules of some group to help me as inarticulate as I was and being in a Brownies or Guilds pack would I feel of helped in my life not least for dealing with my isolation never mind discipline.
Strangely my siblings did join cubs and scouts but my folks never got me into something that was potentially very good for me.
If there was a Guides for Adult but Child like people like me I'd would love to join even now.