The way things were Feb 9 2012

 I'd like you to imagine a scene.

This morning we discussed the causes of the the Franco-Prussian war complete with an essay to write as homework due in in around three to five days time listing sources used and so on.

The bell is heard, we pack up are textbooks, note pad and exercise books as it's morning recess, filing out slowly in single file (yes we had order at my school).

We discuss what was on tv last night but inevitably the conversation turns to where you went last with your boy/girlfriend , relationship statuses and who's hot.

You're so not into this, wanting instead to play games in the playground, you aren't romantically involved with anyone just wanting to share your dolls, teddies and other interests to others but this is so uncool with your peer group. 

You're not just feeling isolated for being the only trans in the form, you are lonesome because you can't share never mind openly talk about about this whole other side of your life without inviting ridicule.

Well that was me at 16, getting good results, responsible showing maturity where it mattered,having a good understanding of some grown up things like current affairs and looking after those who needed help settling in. 

I still have my dolls, plushies (more mainstream now than they used to be) plus teddies and yes I love to go on my swing when the weathers great as it's so comforting.

I'm the same today as I was yesterday and those years ago although some interests have changed maybe a bit more clued in what passes as 'social norms' and been employed in fields that would be too upsetting for a good many of you to protect society.

Thank you for reading this.

*Originally posted at UK Angels.

Round up

We appear to be moving back into a cold spell here after that warm up and the internet stuffs that's still not right like the landland phone line while we're still working through the ideas that were in mind for the new year.

One area was sleeping attire that we started to work on but frilly often tends to be cool which when you don't have a working central heating boiler doesn't tend to work so well.

The other was getting more of my dollies on display and having less tech dominating which it had from the days of the oldest machine been stuck in one room with the modem and router plus the phone being in the front room.

That's now changed so the Little Red Ridinghood dolly is now on full display downstairs where the phone used to be with some of the others.

I had the first two tumblrs to block this weekend with two sex pests leaving unwanted messages that have nothing to do with what I post at all which is something that's plagued me ever since I joined the site. 

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Connected - unconnected!

Well we called last weeks entries reconnected but here we've been unconnected with some very interesting consequences as in essence I was connected to a duff circuit and left in limbo which isn't a great dance to be doing and taking ages to find someone who could make sense of what happened and how it was to be put right.

One thing they did do after much gnashing of teeth is supply a router that runs of the 4G mobile phone network and sends it over Wifi to any wifi device such as a laptop or chromebook although that had a fault that made it impossible to tell if it was really working correctly.

As many of you may be aware by default a good number of Mobile providers block sites that are seen as inappropriate for children so you would expect Pr0n sites to be blocked but one safe for work "littles" site was block even though there was no sexual content whatsoever just because some see the broad category of "adult littles" as being all about DD/lg aka CG/l where the site itself is more about being that child in an adult body focusing more on dressing, playing and acting more like a child, skipping about cashing butterflies and flying your kite.

On the other hand two overly sexual "sissy" sites were not blocked at all as was one ABDL and one DDLG site which seems odd even if the other the ABDL site isn't sexual more R15.

It is to be hoped come Monday someone will repair the fibre optic cable so the system that was installed will work properly.

 

Reconnections

Brrr!!!

It's been a very cold snowy week here with extra layers on and even the odd old sweatshirt on at night as we're sorting stuff out regarding the change over from copper based telephone wires to digital fibre right through the house.

This means looking where all the kit will need to go, sorting out how the dect phones will connect with the new system as originally the phone was in the hall but then migrated via an extension into the front room while the internet came into the dining room where originally the computing was done on a Tower system and that certainly wasn't wanted in the front room at all!

We think it'll all go in the hallway aptly on the top of the original telephone table but if there are any delays next week, you'll know its connected to that change over

New Year and review issue

So it is New Year already and it's bucketing down  already although you might say the backdrop to that was around from mid afternoon yesterday when I went out for a bit of a walk as I felt my joints starting to seize up.

What's happened here this year gone I hear you all cry.

Well although the year before had seen some reductions in the amount of time I went away as issues with capacity and some other issues we'll leave out of a public post I was able to worm my way back in for both weekends like the Christmas Party apart from the now traditional two longer get togethers for several days just playing, doing things, having fun.

After the events of the previous year, that was very much needed given some of the issues that tend to surface in my family and some of Dad's blacker moods at times.

Moods is apt thing cos in a number of ways this blog has been of late more around feeling, emotions and what they call today more stuff with emotional well-being as past events have left me with various traumas and sometimes patterns of behaviour that don;t really help me.

Just getting them off my chest, acknowledging they are around and trying to do something more positive about them is really rather more of what I need to be doing.

 

In the New Year I'll dress more in accordance with how I feel so I feel comfortable in my own skin. just being me, finding more time to do the things that help keep me more on the level, being more child-like. 

That I think also applies with me to keep me in check.

Some things just work with me and we might as well just acknowledge the fact a good spanking helps although time spent talking about and agreeing to finding ways of avoiding getting in the situations that call for it helps too.

Happy 2025 folks!