My schoolgirl side

Like naughtysusi, I'll also write this a bit unconventionally partly cos I like something different and partially cos some of the ideas readers may have simply don't apply to me.

I'm writing this several years on from beginning what may be called becoming a schoolgirl crossdresser although if you were to look far enough back into it, it's been going on right back into my schooldays.

You see, Crossdresser means differing things to differing people and more often than not it's used to identify a person who likes presenting as a gender different from that on their birth certificate but who doesn't feel or wish to be that gender. I'd like to say if that is you, I'm perfectly fine with it and glad you're enjoying the experience.

However in another sense if you are recorded as being one gender but feel you actually are of another then until the point that it is changed, then strictly speaking you are crossdressing.

I became a schoolgirl crossdresser therefore at an early age even for brief periods while at school thanks to the girls that helped me change uniform but never really got more started on it as in putting together a full uniform until I'd left formal education.

That uniform has a strong emotional resonance to me as something I desperately wanted to own, take care of and have to wear as that girl I felt so while part of my exploration centred around the more adult big girl, this whole schoolgirl side which had never really gone away.

So it was around a period of major profession related stress that I started off with experimenting with netball skirts and tops, the whole girly sporty thing in part cos girls sports were what I loved to play, when I was able to talk around folks into letting me be on the team and that I wanted to play in traditional girls sports kit.

I just found the whole experienced dressed as such such a great relaxation not least for feeling I was being a part of the denied me that it was not long before I started looking more into the regular daytime schoolgirl look.

One start point into that was more adult dark goth dresses not least the pinafore type which I wore for a period before encountering online communities of adult little girls and what you might call recreational school based role playing sites and establishments.

Encountering them lead me more into looking into full replica uniforms, that's to say the tops, outer garments such as skirts, socks and smalls that were and in some school still the proscribed have to wear brands.

It also lead to an examination in my mind of what sort of age range the schoolgirl I wished to present as was so seeing I felt more middlish -around the ages of 9-12 than the high school sort this lead me to something like UK Juniors uniform comprising of red sweatshirt, grey pleated skirt, white or grey socks with plain t shirt and regulation school smalls and a blue pleated zip fastening games skirt.

It's in this uniform as a schoolgirl, I've been out with littles/middles enjoying real life interactions being and playing that schoolgirl I always wanted to be finding life much much more enjoyable.

A few days ago spurred on by a local charity, I went through my wardrobe and noticed those early items that lead to being that uniformed schoolgirl, some that don't quite fit, all seldom worn today and they are to go.

As I wrote one an entry or two here at EP, the idea around having actual schoolgirl daytimes dresses has been with me for a long time and as those Goth variants were to go together with a few other things it was time to decide what to do about it.

Because I so wish to wear an actual schoolgirl pinafore as uniform, I decided to get myself two, one grey and one black to replace them with together with a black pleated elasticated skirt.

Everything for this schoolgirl crossdresser is turning full circle, that girl is being out as herself as being dressed as such online, the adult goth transforms to schoolgirl outgrowing that attempt at accommodation of the inner child, shreading that attire.

She has become the schoolgirl increasingly in her pinafore being the little she really is.