Crossing into Big Brothers

We've past Halloween and Guy Fawkes Night season, a fixture of my childhood as between my social awkwardness with being autistic and difficulties tolerating the smoke were things I very much looked forward too.

I was fortunate in that I enjoyed very good relationship with my older as much as he did threaten to use a  cane on my hands a few times when I got carried away because he took a very genuine interest in my welfare talking about various changes I was going through, school life and my hobbies and interests some of which such as music we did both share

The one area that we stayed at the "I'm okay,You're okay" stand off was really around gender and sexuality where until recently I didn't know he was gay although I had my suspicions and for that matter he doesn't know about my being trans and very much an Adult Little as much as might be desirable.

I mean Mom, god bless her accepts the little side of me easier than any kind of big trans stuff, somehow she see's developmentally  I've always been more of a child so can live more with that although I haven't told her everything about the meet ups and stuff.

Maybe one day it'll all be out in the open?