Realized me

There are times when I actually wonder what would of happened had my paperwork as a child would of read 'girl' which I really think it ought to of.
I've written a bit here about the conceptualized ideal of me as that 'special' schoolgirl having the life and experiences denied. I'm just visualizing a me having to wear a smart white blouse with a diagonal cross striped tie, white knee length socks and close fitting navy blue knickers underneath my gymslip.
I'd look really smart walking to school and between each classroom and no doubt subject to inspection to see I'm properly dressed to their rules and you know what?
I'd of of gladly complied!