Reflections on events to come

 

Is it too much for people to see how it is their perceptions of you lead to the situation you and you alone are "the problem", the one who can't just be like the others because you are not made that way even in other ways they are not either?

That people operate such under the radar systems of communication, indirect, often in places and settings away from you with no transparency from start to finish you are expected to know just how to respond and when by.

If you are so ill you are point you are unable to communicate for a period, no one inquires just how you are or reminds you about anything they know more about than you do so all you hear is "we heard nothing".

I'd put it another way: Frankly knowing what you do, you don't care much one way or another, another name another number on a list, it really didn't matter to you. 

Mission was accomplished and so that's how its always been. 

You are left feeling "the problem" was you and it will never stop. Were you ever really in the group?