Lending support

 

I've never really been much of a one for cheerleading anyone or anything really as if they or it were the total answer to what might of been needed probably because I'm more accustomed to very much nuanced thought processes.

Things tend to have pluses and minus's in my world be they ideas or the people who bring them in and so alternatives are seldom without merit so things may be more finally balanced for me than perhaps others.

Sometimes people think you're not loyal, totally behind things but for the difference between success and failure lies in having a sense of proportion and the preparedness to seek advice before committing oneself to a course of action and to use it.

It can also mean that when things are just not turning out right, having the humility to accept that and change course before being overtaken by events.

Reflections on events to come

 

Is it too much for people to see how it is their perceptions of you lead to the situation you and you alone are "the problem", the one who can't just be like the others because you are not made that way even in other ways they are not either?

That people operate such under the radar systems of communication, indirect, often in places and settings away from you with no transparency from start to finish you are expected to know just how to respond and when by.

If you are so ill you are point you are unable to communicate for a period, no one inquires just how you are or reminds you about anything they know more about than you do so all you hear is "we heard nothing".

I'd put it another way: Frankly knowing what you do, you don't care much one way or another, another name another number on a list, it really didn't matter to you. 

Mission was accomplished and so that's how its always been. 

You are left feeling "the problem" was you and it will never stop. Were you ever really in the group?

Jo gains a badge edition

I'm a bit late in publishing todays edition I'm afraid with a few unexpected things to deal with and just as I was about to get into the swing of it, I get correspondence that needs to be dealt with.

I'm still about contrary to what some at a certain site say but as I have said on here before I am not in the best of health, I do run low on energy and that means I need to prioritize what I do more towards things that are important like as novel as it may before for some like trying to get food organized and generally look after my well being that expecting me to posting and chatting away on sites.

As it is I run a Tumblr and three blogs and believe you me, I struggle with that some weeks to the point I have considered pausing this blog so to read comments that don't take account of things that have been said before and in one place even with a "sticky" note is disheartening and yet people don't seem to understand.

I have been working on tidying my Tumblr up as goes back a few years because looking at and posting the odd comment when I'm up to it does help to cheer me up and those sorts of things honestly are the best uses of my spare time when I can.

Breaks such as the one the week before last to just relax and be with people are really the things I need rather than random "I'd like to take your knickers down and turn your bottom bright red, what do you think?" messages and that.

I'm more than a spanking fantasy.