Staying warm

Although there's little doubt back when I was officially younger anything other than thin plain cotton or polyester pajama's would of been looked on with a sense of incredibility, these really would be the returned to childhood middle  me ones.
Given the coldness of the Winter the fleecy material with super cute girlish Hello Kitty print would be the very thing and a great thing for littles to be put in just like their real childhood sisters are.

Background capsule

I usually have a reason for  posting things even though I'd be the first to admit I don't always have an idea of what's going up until I'm sat here typing away.
I suppose today I've been thinking back to my past and how this whole topsy turvy life of mine started off and this is perhaps the best link I can give to it in that I knew around 4 to 5 years of age I really objected to that reflection of me in the mirror cos I knew I wasn't a boy.
People write books study to degree levels in gender studies and all with grand theories but I prefer to cut to the chase: If you don't feel plus you don't connect with your social gender and loath how you look wanting to curl up and and die first then you're trans, period.
The world in my head wasn't a million miles removed from that picture, the plushies, the dolls and above all that dress although I think there's nothing wrong with wearing pants or shorts either as it's about the how rather than if.
That whole hands on hips pose and the lovely print is very much me at the core  (I'd of loved to worn it) and maybe that's what troubled some people who think it's their job to police the gender divide.
And that was it with the little side of me still loving the same things today as then pretty much so you see it's not like there's just one side of me, a side people get wrong often thinking it's all about a gender change rooted say nostalgia or having the childhood you didn't have. It's always been with me as apart of the trans side with the older in some ways more grown up side both female and intertwined with each other. We're one whole person just like my friends who are natul who also have a smaller side.
A dialogue between the two sides: LG=Little Girl, BG Big Girl/Adult
BG: Hi. Who are you?
LG: You know I who I am. I'm your younger side
BG: How old are you?
LG: I'm 12 thank you.
BG: Where did you go?
LG: You packed me away in the toy box with my teddies.
BG I did?
LG: You did cos Mommy wasn't happy with me around.She banished me and it hurts.
BG: I'm sorry.She had these issues.
LG: I want to come out to play but is safe now?
BG: If you came out to play what would happen to me? I keep you safe.
LG: Are you happy?
BG: No, I'm sad. I'd much sooner play.
LG Why do you want to be around? Can't you just look out for me  instead while I play?
BG: If I played, I'd be you.
LG: That make you happy?
BG: Yes.
LG:  Is this a deal. You just do big looking out not upsetting the grown ups.
BG: Yes! Let's make it our pact.
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Before we leave

What would you think immediately upon encountering her in the restroom? Would you question what she was doing there and maybe what her past was?
It never ceases to amaze me the fuss so many make about people in the process of gender transitioning and that time you need to relieve yourself and maybe touch up your make up even though it’s clear you’re presenting as a female. Then there’s the clever so and so’s who say well I think you oughta be in the men’ as your not all 100% transformed rather ignoring the risk of abuse, sexual even , they’re putting you at risk from never mind the fact they’re no laws mandating dress modes for genders anyway.
If you’re reading this and you’re not transgendered, please think about this before huffing and puffing the next time you need to leave the table in a café and aren’t sure if the person in the toilet line is meant to be there or causing a hissy fit.
Thank you.

A playing, making, thinking little Jo

In all this talk about regressed life, the idea of making things hasn't really been explored much and yet however imperfect my actual childhood was it did involve making things from kits and so a return to making things from something like this really would make sense no least in developing my co-ordination, imagination and problem solving skills.
Doing that would help in my more adult side of life that I cannot escape too because such skills are transferrable.

Gender test

What gender do you think you are?

Your result for What Gender do you Think and Feel Like? …
Wilting Romantic
Female Heart, Female Brain
Your thoughts and feelings are both feminine. Such combination can make you appear soft and malleable to people.
This test is not about physical sex, but gender, which has nothing to do with what body you were born into or what your sexual orientation is. However, you express yourself in a very feminine way.
Well peoples that was my test score and I wonder if some of you would be the same