It's really more that in a lot of ways I have always been younger than my years, the youngest in the class when it comes to development and maturity regardless of where in the calendar my birthday actually is and that you're xx months younger by that than I am.
That creates its own issues because at one level you're seen as that child being the one whose said to be old enough to know better but often the one who is looked after by all the others like their kid sister (or brother) cos you don't seem to have it.
I do honestly wonder whither or not dressing in younger style and not just in school based uniform would help shift other peoples presumptions around me to at least the point you see me more for the person of the age who needs that help, that managing if you like?
Something like this twin piece jacket and skirt worn with tights and a blouse doesn't look demeaning but does present me in a younger way.
If only someone like her would just come out and say this to me it would be so good as I get so wrapped around my opinion that how it looks (and actually is) goes walk abouts.
The following is a genuine post
"I'm 18 and I've been bad. I cuss and disrespect my parents. I slack off and don't get my homework done on time and I'm lazy and don't do chores. I've never been spanked or disciplined. What would you do if I misbehaved and I was your daughter?"
That's the thing - you can sense you need some sort of discipline, doesn't have to be physical, to break this habit as you are lacking self discipline but nobody is prepared to give it to you.
For me an explanation of what's so wrong with not being responsible letting yourself and others down , An over the knee spanking, repeat of explanation, ten minutes silent contemplation, hugs and a promise to turn her around starting with supervising her chores, correcting until we get it right would work.
When you weigh this up she's begging for discipline and guidance in her life.
It's time adults stepped up and give her it.
I'm feeling a bit more relaxed although I'm away regressing this week looking just like the school girl I feel in an environment that's very much in little space enjoying every second of it.
The last time I messed up, putting my oar in to a situation that had nothing to do with me just cause I could ending up with a verbal chastisement for it that can't really complain about as sometimes I just overshoot even though my intention was just to suggest something that might of worked better.
Outside of the activities, I just found being in the gardens, walking around helped to keep me calm as I sorry about social situations cos I just seem to put my feet in it, spotting the wildlife.
