Totality of Identity II (A kind of an essay but I'm rubbish at them)

Well this thing is taking an eternity to really clear looking at the waste paper basket I was looking at a post from the early 2010's which while I'm nor in great shape could do with a but of of an update as it was written more at and for very much age regressed littles setting following a rather up and down journey some fifteen years before when I had little to nothing of a connection to the internet and much that I did have for a period left me rather conflicted.

There was certainly that age regressed side there which was well nailed but not much mention around how disability affects self exploration some of which I was reminded of several months back at a recreated school day .

I literally needed someone to fasten my school tie, fasten buttons and straighten collars as this was more a senior school rather than juniors  with polo shirts, sweaters and pull on skirts.

That's not something I could easily do just on my own and other things get more involved in that way because I do have a more "Sissy" side which is often fiddly with fastening bras, tieing up corsets when you just have no co-ordination, an inability to walk in heels which is de riggre for nearly all sissies. 

And I mean this sissy can't even pull hur self up by hur suspenders, struggling to fasten then before just feeling tired out and yet to be truthful I'd just love somebody to spend a day or so helping me really dress the part cos when I'm like that I just love it.

Satins and frills rule!

You're not gonna tire yourself silly but you can't deny what you'd sooner do and express those ways whatever the opportunities might be because being you is a Need.

That side was always in the mix so I tend to wear over the knee socks with shorter skirts more  or opaque tights although pulling them on can be a struggle.

More rest

 

It's probably just as well I'm comfortable with my own company this week as I'm really quite unwell and need to stay in having aquired yet another covid variant not making my way in the categories of people who get boosters this year even though my immunity to infection is poor.

I might get out wrapped up with a mask on to do a bit of photography for a bit as I've upgraded the standard zoom on the Nimon to something that's sharper, has better contrast and covers more moderate wideangle to moderate telephoto which cuts out a lot of lens changing given my photographic interests.

Until next week when I'm better, bye for now. 

Restoration post

Hi! It's been a rough old few weeks battling with being poorly here for much of the month to the point of feeling really out of things there are few things to talk about beyond Taylor's new album this week.

Ill health can come in many forms, it may be connected with a childhood condition or disability which it is with me unfortunately for others it's something that develops or occurs later on in their chronological life.

"D" has been a long standing member of our LG group although they do have a slighter older side for more years than I have, contributing to things like bringing and preparing food, helping organize activities with is like cat herding on steroids at times and generally keeping an eye people as people can and do have emotional responses not least those who just haven't had the chance to let the LG side of themselves out for domestic reasons.

An all round "good egg".

Recently she experienced a heart attack - her first - that required hospitalization that has left an impact for her that may well recover in time but also caused much concern to their partner of many years which with being of retirement age too has caused to to consider at least as far attending get togethers that may of been three or more days which involved a lot of travelling too attendance.

Her decision is to pull back from that - not pulling back from being little  - being open for the odd visit and I for one respect that because aspects of this life like travelling hundreds of miles to events takes a lot out of you.

Doing that in a day leave me shattered  and you do need to consider the time you may wish to spend with the rest of your family like grand children which in the bigger scheme of things are more important.

This can happen to all of us, arguably will happen as our bodies age in ways our minds and outlook do not so we ought to be prepared for that, passing the baton on to the next generation.  

Onward bound

"I wonder what this is all about?" I hear you cry especially as we know me and trains have a lot bad memories and you generally won't see many pictures of them here although obviously I do travel sometimes more times than others .

There are times when you do seem to see or act in ways others don't which can be a good thing for seeing what may adrift with other peoples ideas and sometimes not when they appear to think you're utterly weird, struggling to keep up with the connections you make that seemingly they don't.

Yet to you, it's a complete mirror image, their take makes no sense and just where the heck did they get that from?

Thing is really we're all individuals with our own ideas so really we're better off exploring each others traits and seeing what we can learn from each other.

Every cloud has a silver lining edition

Hey people did you know this blog has had over 7000 page views since it's conception and is read people people on two continents? Quite something, eh?

Well yesterday was quite something in a bad kind of a way cos I was halfway on the commute to work when I senses an 'aura' the warning sign of  migraine which are a lot worse than just a bad headache and had to make my way back home.

Now that of itself doesn't bother me but for two things I was feeling dizzy, the local taxis were all tied up with school runs so I couldn't get one home and critically I'd left my cellphone at home on charge!

Not good as I had to walk though quiet country roads home.

Anyway I got home taking my time and ensuring I kept to where there were houses that if needed assistance I could get some from and the weather was pretty good  - so good -  that decided to take a picture by the Trent and Mersey canal that I like.

Frilled edition!

A good good while back anything really "girlie" used to really send me skipping off to the table to hide under but over the years things have changed.

Heck I did mention the odd thing about overall changes within some time ago so something I don't usually talk about  and certainly never something you'll see peeking out all ikky on this blog ever but actually some of us do a bit of the frilly albeit in a restrained way possibly cos we're exploring things. Exploring us even.

In my case probably more I just feel like sometimes being more girlie some of the time at least and something that is relatively plain with fully elasticated legs for a snug fit appeals more than some designs and I feel happy in them.

Plus I got a couple of pairs of these white frilly ankle socks to go with them and these do go just above the ankle which I prefer looking a bit more balanced with the skirt lengths I usually wear.

Tumblring Adventures

Another week goes by and while rather busy here, I have a couple of things to mention of which the Child Online safety bill is having an impact on some sites but in less than wholly predictable ways with some requiring work arounds and others you might of thought would of been not.

 
The other is oddly enough my random jottings littles centric Tumblr appears to be taking off when it comes to followers being in the mid 50's so thanks for all there who do follow it.

It's been going for a good number of years having survived the Tumblr purges, inter age regression communities warfare and a fair number of people just dropping away from Tumblr in general.

Meanwhile and not entirely unconnected with some of the above, this was something I just loved doing at school way back when be it solo skipping or playing skipping games to rhymes in threes or more taking turns.

Given it is the resumption of schooling and the Autumn Term it's rather apt for me. 

 
Such fun!