Fun outfits

This is just the sort of girlish attire I like outside of uniform, contemporary, stylish  but wouth being too fussy with just enough pink in it without coming over too saccharine.

Bodnant Gardens

I like flowers and gardens a lot having visited a good many in my childhood although getting around them with my disabilities isn't easy as I'm not good on my feet and I tire easy.
One of the places I like to visit is Bodnant Gardens in North Wales, UK.
Here's a couple of pictures I took originated on film shot on HD mode using APS

As you can see the flowers in full bloom and I was rewarded with a bright sunny day which made taking a decent picture using a relatively simple camera easier. Had I of realized it, I'd of shoot them on 35mm film on my Olympus slr going wide and cropping to HD or Panorama style using the computer.

Getting ready for New Term

Fast approaching end of Summer Vacations which for me  at least signifies the start of the Autumn Term and getting all your school requirements such as uniform sorted, ironed ready.
You know pretty much what my uniform is, and what it means to me so apart from anything else making sure everything is in top top shape really matters.

Apart from the socks as I like white just above the knee socks that's pretty much how mine looks and that's what I'm wearing this minute.
Apart from finding Peaches and Spikey after a bit of tidying up I got into my closet and have been creating some space to hang everything nicely.
While there I made a few discoveries such as finding three pairs of tailored shorts that oddly enough two would go with the uniform, being Grey,Blue  and White for PT type fun that gives me an option for playing not least actual out of doors playtime that should help to keep me more in tune with me inner self too. They're not the flannel sort that LB's wear but not so far off with pockets.
I suspect they date from that period I mentioned when I talked about shorts a while back being a route back into littleness before I knew anything about being little because I just do things anyhow.
And I've gotten some new socks ready for September too

Realized me II

Another form of realized me is actually the girl out of school who loves to wear dresses although to be honest I find most really frilly 'Little Girl' dresses too fussy with acres of netting and that while something like this with a Butterfly motif and Dolly Mixtures on the skirt part wuld be just up my alley

Fur side story

After all that standard Olympics stuff and don't forget we have the Paralympics too which the UK played a big role in establishing in 1948 I thought I'd write about something I've referred to in chat but not never really on sites.
When I was living in the Greater London Area, I used to travel out a lot across and just beyond the City and on one Saturday morning in the spring I was in the Covent Garden area, a favourite part of central London of mine where I came by this:

Aww she's cute, very fluffy and and a hand puppet being made by hand and I just had to have her, walking across the area clutching her tightly afterward. This was well before I had any idea of what being a little even was!!!
Well I used to take her to work - as this is the internet and a public site I won't say where - but the job was super important for children's welfare over here and every lunch time I'd put on an impromptu puppet show. We called it Peaches the Panda show and it was ever so funny. At all other times she was on my desk and I'd start playing with her as people drifted about the office.
Shortly afterward I got another fluffy thing but this was more a Plushie I named Spikey cos 'es an Hedgehog.

I found them a few days ago as I was sorting out my closet so I give them a bit of clean and fluffing up and their back out on display.

Realized me

There are times when I actually wonder what would of happened had my paperwork as a child would of read 'girl' which I really think it ought to of.
I've written a bit here about the conceptualized ideal of me as that 'special' schoolgirl having the life and experiences denied. I'm just visualizing a me having to wear a smart white blouse with a diagonal cross striped tie, white knee length socks and close fitting navy blue knickers underneath my gymslip.
I'd look really smart walking to school and between each classroom and no doubt subject to inspection to see I'm properly dressed to their rules and you know what?
I'd of of gladly complied!

Letting out your emotions

One thing many adult kids struggle with is getting into a little frame of mind especially if you've been at college or work where you've been dealing not just with those responsibilities connected with say turning up on time and doing the task you are expected to but also talking about more grown up matters such as current affairs or medical science.

Dealing with the former I'd had to say really caused my little side to come out stamping her two feet however as you may not be able to leave some of these things then what can we do to help?

The way in which your little side can vary but for a good number of us, we need a lead piece that throws a switch in us.

For some of us it can be something that has a clear link to our pasts and for me things like Theo 2nd, my brown teddy bear is one thing that I associate with comfort, feeling safe and wanted as for all of my life not least the time I spent in boarding school, teddies always went with me.

And what I got from them was the same then as now, the ability when the day doesn't going right, something I just hold and hug closely for minutes on end, maybe even letting any tears go from whatever was upsetting me.

When I stand in The Corner with my Teddy and cry, I find I can quickly get into my "little" headspace. I don't know if it's as easy for boys to do that, but you should try it. If you are going to be Spanked, you might want to think long and hard and squeeze your teddy. You may find the tears glow well before the Wooden Paddle comes down across your bottom.

I find hugging or sitting with one on my lap afterward helps me get feel reassured everything will returned to how it was before I messed up and I've learnt my lesson.

Another thing I think is worth trying even is sleeping with it as whenever I felt the need for a bit of night-time reassurance it really helps me relax, getting a good nights sleep in.

God knows sometimes even in 'adult' life you need that restfulness hugging a teddy brings too.

Another thing that ties into this is what we generally call plushies, soft furry creatures sometimes linked to tv and film series that I think many of us like.

For me Hello Kitty is very big and when working used travelled to and from our office where she'd be on the desk with a few other bits and pieces simply because for one thing my work was emotionally stressful and for another I finding coping with being in that setting difficult so being able to create a more agreeable child-like space in the back office helped me to do my job, feeling more relaxed and in control of my emotions.

At home I have loads set out in the spaces I set around in with a few other play things that help me moving into a more child-like headspace, doing some colouring or perhaps playing with toys on the floor.

Whenever I'm away with little friends I always have a few plushies and dolls with me to bring a bit of home to wherever I'm stopping.

For some, plushies are more a collecting thing but to me they're much more than that, they're furry characters I can weave into stories I then act out on the floor or the couch, vocalizing for good measure that brings to life your imagination.

And that's the imagination of that adult kid let out, having fun.

Hello and goodnight from me

Hi people.
First things first, we've a number of new visitors to this blog according to the numbers thing Google provide, and if that's you please read the About and if you wish, add a comment to the Hellos sections you click on from the top of the blog as they'll explain what this blog is really about and why I was so pleased Samantha amongst others publicly recognized the value of it.
I also wish to welcome PowderKid ,teenb101,Pickachu, tinkerbell and Noodle to my home of schoolgirlish innocence as well as Mary who returned to GT this week.
People at  Adisc and GT may have noticed something, namely my avatar yes the one form the same series as the delightful image I'm claiming this week, looks well, sharper, because when I edited it last time to fit the square 150x150pxavatar size restrictions at both sites, somehow the online resizer made it very grainy something Noodle rightly brought to my attention so I redid the resizing.
Last week I talked about sleep having lost several spoons to staying awake for longer than is good  for me and sleep is something that has been mentioned before as in Little Modes Sleep both at GT and there's a current thread running on it at Adisc plus there's my "Downsized Sleep" entry on here about talking about how and what I got from throwing the groan up stuff out of it!
Anyway peoples you'll recall I'd converted sleep into a going to sleep and waking up  as a adult little girl experience with age appropriate bedlinen, teddy bears, posters, pretty much the works really and it was wonderful.
Well, how well do you find actually switching off, closing your eyes and going to sleep? If you're like most of us maybe a bit iffy even if we turn off the Tv for a bit before getting into bed. But there's something, you might remember it, that used to work pretty well for you when you were younger and I'm suggesting you try it.
Recently faced with this, I recalled this reassuring routine of either being read a short story or maybe of listening to soothing songs -Lullabies- that from being in bed get you into a relaxed sleepy frame of mind from my own childhood.
It happens that Amazon has a pretty good recording of Lullabies in contemporary arrangements in stock that is available as an inexpensive download as well as a cd and I bought it.
Lullabies-the rainbow collection which I'm sure is available on Amazon in the States and Canada too.
It runs for about 35 minutes which is just long enough for you to start to drift off clutching your teddy and it does really help having adopted this into my sleep routine packed with favourite songs and rhymes from the past.
Until the next time and IK chat.
 Hugs Jo.