Carefree pasts

Sometimes I just feel like sitting down and writing things like short stories and reading although I struggle with both having done so since childhood but that whole carefree feel doing something is what I think I need.

Revitalized girl

Ha! that got you thinking, eh?

Well between the rain dampening my bones and the return of the gale force winds thoughts went back to creature comforts.

Part of the treatment for girls like me includes wearing shorter skirts outside of schooling as they do take away most the elements of appearing grown up, do look quite and can aid disciplining.

Well kinda connected I guess is this

Okay they're flat ballet pump styled but let's be honest here with the effects of my cerebral palsy on walking as fanciful as heels might be, the one big problem I have is being able to walk maintaining my balance and I wobble badly in heels (maybe I need crutches?) so practicality wins out.

One the other hand they are feminine, do possess a bow and are sufficiently school like to wear with my uniform.

Waiting or making things happen

It may be just over four weeks off but my thoughts are very much centred around that time not least ideally you'd review the last year and most of us were encouraged to keep a journal of what we did, where went, what we learned and critically what we felt which would of helped with understanding how I felt about me and my life and perhaps of aided some sort of maturity which I'll be honest, I know I lack.

Something I think I do think might of helped me grow up at least a bit more which I do really need to would of been to had spent rather more of actual childhood in Girl Guiding, learning new skills, developing more confidence, learning to be a "do-er", being very much one of the girls.

Being able to show what I could learn, having a place in the scheme of things, learning to give more of myself rather than expecting others to do it really was the thing and perhaps it is time to consider something along those lines to help me grow up.

There was an old Woman

Sleeping well

Sometimes I wonder what a simple uncluttered bedroom for Junior Jo could be like because not unlike many actual juniors, it's easy to end up with kind of central entertainments complex featuring a bed which doesn't really help you associate it with restful activities like cat napping or sleep.
I've never had a Big bed in all my life outside of  vacations just  a junior one with a shortie mattress like those you get for 'classic' bunk beds

Skirting around the issue

Oh my brain hurts from a migraine but here goes.
It's not often I talk much around gender identity at least in part  because I've known mine for eons so it's kinda old hat to me plus I got tired of snarky debates around who was really what what in various trans forums because to me I'm just that-me, being me. I mean, if it said girl on my birth certificate you wouldn't  care.
Also as a number of you have actually seen me for real, you know cos you sensed it, we didn't need to say anything.

Overlooking the wrong uniform colours, this could of been so easily me had at the age of ten had I had been allowed to wear a skirt to school and I still can't see what was so wrong with that idea. Gee, I always draw myself as girl back then, something the psychologists I saw for other issues did pick up on so why the heck not?
Ironically some schools from time to time attempt to ban skirts today!

Bonds revisited

 Another bond that can be between girls or between say a girl and an adult female is in allowing them to brush and plait their hair for them in different ways, no just the feeling of of being groomed as  social activity but the trust and conversations that develop as you do this over the years.
I like to have my hair ruffled and stroked.