My schoolgirl side

Like naughtysusi, I'll also write this a bit unconventionally partly cos I like something different and partially cos some of the ideas readers may have simply don't apply to me.

I'm writing this several years on from beginning what may be called becoming a schoolgirl crossdresser although if you were to look far enough back into it, it's been going on right back into my schooldays.

You see, Crossdresser means differing things to differing people and more often than not it's used to identify a person who likes presenting as a gender different from that on their birth certificate but who doesn't feel or wish to be that gender. I'd like to say if that is you, I'm perfectly fine with it and glad you're enjoying the experience.

However in another sense if you are recorded as being one gender but feel you actually are of another then until the point that it is changed, then strictly speaking you are crossdressing.

I became a schoolgirl crossdresser therefore at an early age even for brief periods while at school thanks to the girls that helped me change uniform but never really got more started on it as in putting together a full uniform until I'd left formal education.

That uniform has a strong emotional resonance to me as something I desperately wanted to own, take care of and have to wear as that girl I felt so while part of my exploration centred around the more adult big girl, this whole schoolgirl side which had never really gone away.

So it was around a period of major profession related stress that I started off with experimenting with netball skirts and tops, the whole girly sporty thing in part cos girls sports were what I loved to play, when I was able to talk around folks into letting me be on the team and that I wanted to play in traditional girls sports kit.

I just found the whole experienced dressed as such such a great relaxation not least for feeling I was being a part of the denied me that it was not long before I started looking more into the regular daytime schoolgirl look.

One start point into that was more adult dark goth dresses not least the pinafore type which I wore for a period before encountering online communities of adult little girls and what you might call recreational school based role playing sites and establishments.

Encountering them lead me more into looking into full replica uniforms, that's to say the tops, outer garments such as skirts, socks and smalls that were and in some school still the proscribed have to wear brands.

It also lead to an examination in my mind of what sort of age range the schoolgirl I wished to present as was so seeing I felt more middlish -around the ages of 9-12 than the high school sort this lead me to something like UK Juniors uniform comprising of red sweatshirt, grey pleated skirt, white or grey socks with plain t shirt and regulation school smalls and a blue pleated zip fastening games skirt.

It's in this uniform as a schoolgirl, I've been out with littles/middles enjoying real life interactions being and playing that schoolgirl I always wanted to be finding life much much more enjoyable.

A few days ago spurred on by a local charity, I went through my wardrobe and noticed those early items that lead to being that uniformed schoolgirl, some that don't quite fit, all seldom worn today and they are to go.

As I wrote one an entry or two here at EP, the idea around having actual schoolgirl daytimes dresses has been with me for a long time and as those Goth variants were to go together with a few other things it was time to decide what to do about it.

Because I so wish to wear an actual schoolgirl pinafore as uniform, I decided to get myself two, one grey and one black to replace them with together with a black pleated elasticated skirt.

Everything for this schoolgirl crossdresser is turning full circle, that girl is being out as herself as being dressed as such online, the adult goth transforms to schoolgirl outgrowing that attempt at accommodation of the inner child, shreading that attire.

She has become the schoolgirl increasingly in her pinafore being the little she really is.

Classroom experiment

Education at high school the way I wanted it to be.
Most of science work was completed individually at your own desk, rather than in small groups collaboratively  which may of helped with my shyness and lack of confidence while wearing a traditional pinafore dress is just so me although it is more common in UK high schools today to wear matching separate blouse with either a more senior skirt or trousers.

Little dresses

For me being a little does include somethings outside of a school type setting even though I'm a schoolgirl
A traditional Peter Pan collared dress to wear at things like family gatherings or more formal parties would be just the thing cos I love being in dresses. 

Although when I was officially growing up we tended not to wear tights and indeed tights had only recently taken over from stockings, I'd of been okay with wearing tights as for one thing Mommy put me in tights during the winter months.

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If at home we might just end up dealing with me straight away.

If at school afterwards there might be a detention where I'd be required to write out 50 or more lines on why I read a comic in class or giggled my way through the lesson.

The head of year would set the topic and supervise my detention with her eagle eyes peering through her marking pile toward me.

But then I said "Miss this isn't fair", stomping my feet so She came over but me across her lap and spanked some more times cos I'm a self self centred girl who won't take her punishment. 

Victorian play

Daytrips were a rare thing for us not least for not having a school minibus compared with today  but we did go out to find out about such things as the Victorians and what being a Victorian Child might of been about.
Shockingly we learnt many Victorian children didn't have a childhood as we understood it, with schooling with them as soon as they were able being expected to enter the World of Work often doing dangerous things like looking after Coal Mines and Mills doint the things the grown ups couldn't do with no say in the matter.
Sometimes we'd have a playtime during such trips in a nearby park or something and when it came to the Victorians we were introduced to the games they played playing as if we we were those children and I'd go and play with the girls games like this.
I think it's where I get the idea of wanting to go back in time from cos I just feel it.

A lesson from Miss

This was more like the kind of lesson we had at high school, probably more around age 14/15 as chalkboards were going out of style although the basics of 'chalk and talk' were still there with the white boards using wipeable marker pens, class lead by teacher.
In our day could could be punished in class and some of us were.

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But then that wasn't all as I couldn't get away with anything either.

I'd be caned in class in front of my classmates as they looked in aghast as I screamed and cried, not that it made any difference.
It might be the best thing that happened to this girl,ever.