Spring edition 2014

Spring has sprung here not that I exactly appreciate resetting all the clocks in the house as well as the one on the 13 year old S-Vhs video recorder by hand as  ever since they turned off  the old analogue tv, it no longer automatically resets itself.
However one thing I love is walking through the woods nearby where the birds have formed their nests, raising their young, seeing them flying calling out to each other from one end of the wood to the other. Then there's the squirrels climbing up the trees, traversing the branches before moving along to another and repeating the cycle which in a way the Seasons are all a part of.

One thing you find certainly here both along the highways, parks and some folks private gardens are daffodils, usually commercially cultivated  ones out in full bloom and there was a reason why I selected that commercial image apart from its' technical quality.

Spring is a time of renewal, of rebirth which you see when the bulbs having been planted previous years germinate, throwing out the flowers in all their glory which is well depicted.

There's a girl in that picture, maybe one whose thrown off the more austere winter attire to something that feels so much more fresh and vibrant as she engages with new life being herself.

Coming down the stairs last night the symbolism just struck me.

Little footwear

The more littles side of me loves short frilly socks on buckle T fastening girls shoes which ironically I was batter at doing for others where my lace up ones I had to get help with every other day as inevitably the laces became undone playing much to the amusement of the boys in my class.
They weren't exactly disability aware shall we say.

L is for little

After last months entry I saw this and feel it's time to be more open about certain things.
I AM a little, I AM a submissive even though I get bratty at times that's cos I'm needing someone else to direct me. I DO dress and  speak in a more childlike manner although for me some of this has medical reasons and DO find this dynamic  comforting although for me there's nothing sexual going on.

Getting on with it

 

This sort of modern tween/teens look hugely appeals to me being very feminine but bold oozing with confidence  I like the bow details lots.

Instant corrections

There are days when I really feel it's high time my knickers came down and people really got on the job of providing proper guidance and discipline in my life as I'm so clueless at times not because I couldn't be taught this but simply because too few people cared enough to. 
A few people such as those at school found this did work well with me and given things like hairbrushes or slippers are easy to find just hanging around spanking me would be easy and what I really prefer Adults to be doing with me.

What I'd really of liked

It may of been my birthday recently but frankly I see no change at all in how I feel this year or any other years to speak of except that in the last few years I've had more littler birthday presents as they've realized I'm not that grown up in lots of ways so things routed in adult culture pass over my head if indeed they even interest me. Sometimes what people give me gets a Meh, so what level of response from me.
The one thing I'd of like to had been given would of been to have to spend several months with a trusted friend of theirs who was to straighten me out, giving me lots of painful spankings  cos while I can be loving, in other ways I'm very self-centered and immature, always looking for a get out from what everyone else is expected to behave and do.

I'm telling

One of the experiences I can well recall from actual childhood  was indeed "I'm Telling" which usually applied we had or that planned to do something we knew or parents, grandparents and teachers strongly disapproved of having made a point of expressing it.

One of greatest "trump cards" you could hold was knowing one thing another child knew would result in some form of punishment or censure for them you'd mention the minute they tried to get one up on you.