The Wind Rises

It's Halloween here today but apart from having a ghoulish time of it tonight I have a new anime to watch.

A little different than most because it is very much about Jiro a Japanese aeronautical designer who worked for Mitshibushi who was inspired by the Italian Caproni who because he'd been nearsighted from a young age wasn't able to become a pilot joins the company in 1927.
He goes on to become one of the world's most innovative and accomplished airplane designers and in that respect this anime by Hayao Miyazaki is a tribute to him.
A seconary interest in this anime, unexpected and much appreciated by me watching it is the romance between Jiro and Nahoko who is ill with tuberculosis marrying her. Some of the scenes showing his love for her during periods where she was very ill are really moving.
The anime, chronicles much of his life time, the Great Kanto Earthquake of 1923, the Great Depression and the entrance of Japan into war in 1937.
The film also explores the growing friendship between him and his colleague Honja.
While some have criticized this anime for being ambivalent on what Jiro designed, warplanes that were a important part of Japan's war machinery, the overall message is one of how war only brings down countries and anti war opinions are voiced.
Overall I thought this was a really good anime, a fitting tribute not just to Jiro but also to the director.

Happy halloween folks!

I am a adult school girl

One thing I have the right to be is myself, an adult middle in the form of a school girl living a life that suits my own needs, not least those that stem from my learning and developmental disabilities that leave me needing a lot of supervision and handling very much like that child.

Enlightenment

Little truths we ignore:

 Measurement:

Going casual

When it comes to more casual looks, this kind of thing, the t shirt and cotton skirt is my usual go to simple cos it's comfortable, easy to put on wear and classy with the look of youth that I can pull of even now.
I just wish my hair was as good as hers!

Tennis skirts

One of the things I learned a few years back was that shorter skirts do look good on me not least because my legs are a pretty decent shape so don't need to be covered up so much although obviously you'd consider the occasion.
I've always liked pleats so something like this Cornfield Tennis skirt would work as the way the lower half poufs out adds volume would compensate for my relatively flat beanpole frame, adding an illusion of curves.

Equalizing age and personal being

This week I'm going back more to a part of this blog that sometimes gets crowded out between the discourse.

It's really more that in a lot of ways I have always been younger than my years, the youngest in the class when it comes to development and maturity regardless of where in the calendar my birthday actually is and that you're xx months younger by that than I am.

That creates its own issues because at one level you're seen as that child being the one whose said to be old enough to know better but often the one who is looked after by all the others like their kid sister (or brother) cos you don't seem to have it.

I do honestly wonder whither or not dressing in younger style and not just in school based uniform would help shift other peoples presumptions around me to at least the point you see me more for the person of the age who needs that help, that managing if you like?

Something like this twin piece jacket and skirt worn with tights and a blouse doesn't look demeaning but does present me in a younger way.

An authoritive voice

If only someone like her would just come out and say this to me it would be so good as I get so wrapped around my opinion that how it looks (and actually is) goes walk abouts.

The following is a genuine post

"I'm 18 and I've been bad. I cuss and disrespect my parents. I slack off and don't get my homework done on time and I'm lazy and don't do chores. I've never been spanked or disciplined. What would you do if I misbehaved and I was your daughter?"

That's the thing  - you can sense you need some sort of discipline, doesn't have to be physical, to break this habit as you are lacking self discipline but nobody is prepared to give it to you.

For me an explanation of what's so wrong with not being responsible letting yourself and others down , An over the knee spanking, repeat of explanation,  ten minutes silent contemplation, hugs and a promise to turn her around starting with supervising her chores, correcting until we get it right would work.

When you weigh this up she's begging for discipline and guidance in her life.
It's time adults stepped up and give her it.