The LB years-Gender corrected corrections

When I went to school in the 1970's and 1980's it was rather different than it is today with more understanding around gender difference and gender equality apart from back then in every school I went to, corporal punishment was permissible sometimes set out in rigid guidelines, others at a teachers own discretion.
I am transgendered, spending my time on the then rigid  'boy' side of the gender divide imposed by the school although at high school I did find girls who were prepared to do mini -girl make over sessions during recesses to let me be 'a girl' at school.

These days I dress more as traditional younger girl.

I did at times get into trouble for various things at school and rather than being sent either on my own or with Boys to be punished I often wished for a scene like this.

Being with the girls punished together as the 'girl I really am' standing as she is on the right awaiting my turn, having witnessed my friends.

But then for me it could of cause be much stricter and a transgendered 'special girl' about to be caned in my girls school uniform, in front of regular girls would be just.

Of course you may end up being spanked by the Head Girl or a Prefect now and they may take you knickers right down for it too!

While for some usually transvestite/crossdressers there is a more sexual fetish going on with schoolgirl uniform spanking, for me it's not being more a return being a child but in her correct gender, being disciplined as she expected in her actual childhood.

Being spanked as a girl is a bond with the sisterhood of my youth.

Nature study

As  a child one thing we did a lot of was going on short nature study rambles at school. 

I guess our teachers were thinking of the idea of gentle exercise, slowing us down to appreciate the small miracles of nature and also the opportunity to make scrapbooks with writing, drawings and stuck in leaves etc about our experiences.

The impact it had on me was so much that continue to go on strolls and  a couple of days ago noticed the pussy willow was out on the local trees.

It's been a generally mild winter and this has no doubt lead to things coming out early.

Today however we're back to the cold spells with daytime temperatures of 1 degrees C and minus 5 overnight with heavy snow. I'm off work today!

The LB years

Because I am Transgendered, I'm going to make a few posts connected directly to my personal experiences around age play, having an inner kid, being an adult little, school life and discipline from the angle of a person raised and positioned socially as a boy  even though even at that time it was plain to me I was girl albeit one in boys clothing.
Where I grew up (allegedly) it wasn't so common to have either all new clothing bought for you so you had somethings handed down from your siblings and cousins and most of my knitted wear was hand knitted by female relatives for me from patterns such as the one above and up to at least my 17th birthday whenever I visited Grandma, she always took my measurements and then show me a few patterns from which I was to select what she'd make me.
I was fortunate that quite often she'd knit me the girls version, especially buttoned cardigans while she did those for my female cousins.
My parents  always dressed me in shorts, lined proper tailored ones in part cos generally  I disliked long pants, especially jeans cos I liked to feel skin breathe so even though for the most formalist  occasions even in my mid teens generally I wore them, except for those periods I could 'borrow' a girls more formal skirt on my own.
In a lot ways I'm more Tomboy and have more in common with my Tomboy  sisters who'd wear dungarees and shorts too so being in shorts wasn't that big of a deal and to be honest I find the whole dressy side of a number in the transgendered  community a real turn off as all I wanted to be was me NOT a frilly dress or a canvas for make up and lipstick with just my name used and respected, that's all.
Although I was brought up in short and long socks, my mommy did put me in tights when I was in my teens and I wore tights at school under regular black trousers not unlike some schoolgirls do today.
I usually wore more 'blousy' shirts like with cherry motif on them or more unisex t shirts rather than anything specifically male and indeed mommy even bought me girls sweatshirts so in some ways I dressed more like a androgynous female albeit one deemed male at the time.

Kino's Journey

Kino's Journey ADV complete series

For centuries, those in search of self-discovery and knowledge of the world have hit the road in furtherance of those quests. Young Kino, along with her talking motorcycle Hermes, has the same goal -- to travel and observe and learn from different cultures. Staying exactly three days in each location, Kino and Hermes learn much about the world and themselves.In disc two Emerging Lanes, Kino discovers the joy inherent in a trip, without getting caught up in the destination. She realizes that the experience of the journey, and the diversions it brings, matters more than where she's going. As she chats with men working on railways, works hard, and encounters dramatic action in a Coliseum, Kino finds that what she learns along the way is the most important thing.

The Girl Who Leapt Through Time

Recently I purchased this anime DVD issued over here by Manga and was really impressed with it not normally being taken to time travel stories as much as I enjoy sci-fi and anime.

The initial story goes back to the 1970's and has been tackled before but in the opinion of many never in quite the emotional depth of this adaptation and runs like this:

Makoto Konno, a high school girl in Tokyo's shitamachi, realizes she has the power to go back in time and re-do things (what is called a "time-leap") when she impossibly avoids a fatal accident at a train crossing one day.

Bewildered, she consults with her aunt throughout the film, who then implies that she is the protagonist from the original novel. At first, Makoto uses her power extravagantly to avoid being tardy and to get perfect grades on tests, and even relive a single karaoke session for about ten hours. It isn't long however that things begin to turn bad as she discovers how her actions can adversely affect others.

Makoto soon ends up using more of her leaps to recklessly prevent undesirable situations from happening, including an awkward confession of love from her best friend Chiaki Mamiya. Eventually she discovers a numbered tattoo on her arm that counts down with each leap. From this tattoo she realizes it indicates that she can only leap through time a limited number of times. With only a few time leaps left, she attempts to make things right for everyone, but impulsively she uses her final leap to prevent a phone call from Chiaki asking if she knows about time-leaping. As a result, she is unable to prevent her friend Kōsuke Tsuda and his girlfriend from being killed in the accident at the train crossing that Makoto was originally involved in. As Makoto watches the accident in horror, time suddenly stops.

Chiaki reveals that he is a traveller from the future and leapt through time in order to see a painting being restored by Makoto's aunt, as it has been destroyed in the future. While walking in the frozen city, Chiaki hints that his original era occurs after a world wide catastrophe decimates mankind. He then reveals that he has used his final leap to prevent Kōsuke's accident and has stopped time only to explain to Makoto what the consequences will be. Having revealed his origins and the source of the item that allowed Makoto to leap through time, and being unable to return to his time period, Chiaki must disappear. Makoto realizes too late that she loves him as well.

True to his words, Chiaki disappears when time begins again and Makoto is upset. As she tries to come to terms with losing him, she discovers that Chiaki's time-leap had inadvertently restored one time-leap to her: Chiaki had leapt back to before Makoto used her last leap. Makoto now leaps to the moment when she gained her powers, at which point Chiaki still has one remaining time-leap. She reveals everything that he told her in the future concerning his indentity, the ability to leap through time, and his reasons for extending his stay in her time frame. Shortly before returning to his time period, Chiaki says he will wait for her in the future and Makoto replies that she will run toward it.

What makes the film so enjoyable is the portrayal of each character having many layers which adds to the sense of being able to empathize with them throughout the story.

The story is very much bitter sweet because Makoto learns that this power has to be handled with responsibility- changing the past is not so straightforward - and that actions beget reactions as she uses it to make a new world for her friends

I found it very moving.

Order and attire

Uniform plays a part in my life because it is linked in the wider meaning of discipline, the setting and maintenance of standards including that of how you present yourself, the meaning of been seen as representing an institution to which anything you do reflects upon.
Although politically and when it comes to sexuality and gender issues I'm more liberal I am in certain respects very much conservative believing in the adherence to traditional social standards that everyone is expect to know and follow with clear sanctions.

What to call Jo?

Although I do identify more with having a Middle side to the point I would say I was a Middle with a Little side, The bigger dividing point is between being Big - the adult sense of self I lack to a large extent and that of your child-like Little Side which is very present and correct.
So to a large extent I am happy for people to call me "Little Girl" because being who I am is IN the wider umbrella of being a Little and if you seen my earlier posts, you'll know that is the one thing I most definitely am and is very much how I should be treated.