Lessons Learned

As mentioned last week I was going to be away for a littles meet up and have only just arrived back a little lacking in spoons on Tuesday afternoon.
It may well of been showery when this picture was taken, but that wasn't the internal meteorological forecast because actually it was sunny inside for doing what I feel is the more important thing when you're away like exploring and visiting places and things.
 Not only did I behave myself, I found reserves of fitness as impacted as I am by my disabilities to do the things that until recently I'd of thought twice about like actually walking there and back to the castle in the background, enjoying the Whitcliffe Common Nature reserve along the way surrounded by trees.
It certainly wasn't easy for me with hilly terrain with some mud from the overnight rain difficult to walk through but I actually did it.
I like the things you can do indoors such as quizzes, colouring, arts and crafts and even the odd spot of cookery that connect to littles life in various sometimes not so direct ways but perhaps for me something more like a Brownies or Girl Guides camp  in feel and activities is what is more needed?

Pre-Awaytime

The first thing to say is the next edition might possibly be delayed a day or so which does kind of tie into this weeks edition because I'll be away for a few days and by coincidence I only arrived 12 hours before this usually gets published so I may be low on spoons.
The trouble with being low on spoons is I don't have then the energy to do things.

The time will be pretty much divided by organized events like quizes and the more spontaneous things which will be more spontaneous than usual in that it's the very first time we've been to this venue so we don't for sure what's possible although one person in the group has kindly made a list of attractions and other places we could visit plus it's winter so may be okay for walks which I like or possible not with rain although one plus for me is it's less distance home than usual.
Now for the ahem painful bit which is to say I'm very much a girl under adult authority which basically means if I mess up it won't be just a scolding but highly likely to involve a well spanked or caned bottom too for which their won't be much sympathy cos I do have choices about how I act even if some aspects of my life are badly impacted by medical condition such as my amazingly bad short-term memory.
I mean I might well fail a 'memory test' of one was administered as I'm always forgetting stuff even with an hour or less of being reminded but am just as capable of blowing a raspberry and just refusing to co-operate as anyone else.
It may be odd but this life works better for me.

Issues in AgeRe communities

Just nine day to go for I'm off so sometime next week after checking the weather forecasts I'll be in for some serious packing for the five days I'll be away although being Winter I wouldn't expect quite so much outdoor activity which give how hot it was last summer was a bit of a must.
One topic that is still rumbling around on Tumblr is the extent to which any individuals own points of view on transexual identity and politics are both acceptable and should come into anything they may do in a community such as moderate a discord server or run a community.
The idea doing the rounds implies that a person who has the view that dysphoria is necessary, questions the 75 or more quoted genders on Tumblr as actual genders not gender representations) or doesn't feel you can be non binary and either gay or lesbian is somehow unsafe to perform such a task.
To me that only would be an issue if the person was talking around specifically such issues which would strike me as being quite odd in a community of age regressors where you'd only convene to regress together  playing and talking as your younger self AND if the person was acting on such a point of view such as refusing to use your preferred pronouns, deliberate misgendering and generally being a prick.
I cannot say hand on heart whenever I regress I am thinking about gender theory, forms of sexual attraction whenever I play with my dolls or plushies nor colouring cos I know my gender and it's not an issue with who I play.
Nor would I say having been face to face with people that I have had someone push gender issues into play nor I have had cause to.
To me that's much more older student/adult conversation and debate really that doesn't belong in the regressive experience and so I feel holding such views so long as others are respected should not be seen as a bar to doing things that can help people enjoy their regression.
There are too many parallels with the witch hunt in adult LGBTQI circles going on here I feel on matters where there's no clear cut authoritative answer.
Inner kids need protection from that discourse but respected as they are.

A winter wonderland

It's been a bit of  busy week here with a few projects on the go, some work around my few days away in the middle of the month and some stuff involving the way the Government pays my living expenses.
We also did have some old school wintery weather when I went out so I took a few pictures one day and indeed it tried to snow hard on Friday but ceased by noon.

 Looking around after the baa's who'd been taken indoors, the smallholding had a fair coating of snow and almost certainly would of felt frosty under foot as I had to stand on a grass verge sinking into hole to take this picture.
The background is part of a wood that is wider toward the right that survived both road building and increasing encroachment of the built up area in a sensitive part of the North Staffordshire conurbation.

 The "Gatehouse" that leads to a privately owned park, well covered in snow.
I decided against trying to cross the road at that busy and usually dangerous  point in view of the slush and ice on the road.

The entrance to the park that leads to a big estate and a very famous hall, lake and surroundings although much is obscured by road looking very picturesque at this time of year.
At weekends people travel though it to get to the Cricket Ground set in the park for the local club which plays in the North Staffs league to watch them play, enjoying drinks and other light refreshment
In many ways we're most fortunate to have literally on our doorstep such lovely places to walk by and through.

That Boarding School Girl gets a Tumblr!

I have been busy this week and no doubt will be be into the week after with a project that was half realized earlier last week until I decided it wasn't radical enough.

Anyone who knew me especially at Fur Affinity or heck face to face knows just how mixed my feelings are around social media and Tumblr as it applies to me having been through a number of sites in over ten years.
What I don't like about contemporary social media is the tendency for it to be an echo chamber of right on usually left-leaning views that discount many things are actually beyond settled even by academics and other "experts" in those fields.
This often moves into areas where groups disallow alternative views however respectfully expressed because they make others uncomfortable and to placate this sites have rules that also block whole views not merely hateful speech, incitement to commit assaults, terror related acts or harass.
Other issues abound one being Tumblrs change in Terms of Service last year that left swaves of people who wanted to share and discuss topics either removed outright or facing an often inaccurate flagged image like that of a boy scout reading a comic annual full clothed with the account shut into NFSW in seconds as "protection".
Those changes also prevent me from publishing a link to this blog where ironically I can't at 'adult sites' too cos surprise surprise they don't like talking about anything connected to childhood
It's like your too adult for Tumblr but not sufficiently adult for "adult content" spots.
Anyway I did mention changing the avatar at my other Tumblr whose long history I'll spare people but it's enough to say the main difference between that and my more mainstream age regression community is that on outset following on from two successors and a more Sfw Caregiver/little one I had up to January 2016 was talk about and pictures of school uniforms in the context of regression to being a school age child studying and limited talk and tame images connected to spanking which is part behaviour management and part regressive, being a non sexual part of actual childhood I am comfortable with in legally adult life being administered as part of the whole Age Regression package.
One reason to change was Tumblrs rule changes drive a a carthorse right through the latter, wiping tame images, communities and so on and secondly it removed the barrier to having in effect a sfw age regression tumblr that had school uniform talk targeted at over 18's from being a secondary of the main one as all contentious content was banned anyway so provided there was no linkage it would work.
Conceptually it ties in with my That Boarding School Girl blog on Blogger having that bit more maturity about it which had a lot to do with naming it. 
Thus I decided to bit the bullet remaking and rebuilding in places the Tumblr to focus yes on that age regression but free from the hysterics sometimes found in communities with chunks of under 18's, still have the uniform talk but short of the briefest possible mention on the about page nothing around spanking.
Instead I decided to focus more on things around personal development and youth movements from childhood that run through part of my age regression what you might call the Second Chance School to move on within limits.
Again those of you who have met me know how much moving on and "self improvement" always have been and are core things about me so I thought that could belong in their that helps differentiate the mainstream CGLRE on and the non com for over 18's version.
That's what I've been doing and that's fine
Link: That Boarding School Girl

Partial remakes

There are still the rumblings on around getting ready for next month's events having finally gotten my quiz printed off as it seems some inexpensive paper crinkled the way that damp magazines can and caused it to jam.
That means it and the prizes can be put together ready that only leaves ordering my train tickets once it is clear the person I will be with can stop the extra day because if that were so I'd be given a lift to nearest rail station to make my own way home rather than booking a return to their place.
I have been working a bit on the second tumblr like changing the avatar over although I still feel a large chunk for why it existed no longer exist because the very reason it was started on that account was down to the inherent risks of having a blog that may reference the odd 18+ topic on a sfw account and that that wasn't permitted in age regression communities.
 too.
I have decided to remake a chunk of it fresh tas an alt sfw account just for legal adults  who regress because sometimes it's a help to be free from the squabbles that can break out on the other and I don't need much more  other than the messaging to be honest from it.
The trouble with 'adult services' tumblr alternatives is very much the company you keep and trying to keep a sfw dash in such an environment.

Trans politics

It hasn't been the best of reads at one discourse blog I don't follow but have on speed dial for keeping up with the background to some off the other stuff I do follow but today I am just gonna set out my opinions around this topic.
In 2019 we are hearing more of people who do not accept  physically or socially being male or female as filled out on their birth certificates or by family to which attitudes in the past have been "you're being silly" to today's which is less critical and in some circles very much at one with it.
Sexual politics is often emotionally charged  especially when it comes to gender identity to the point some people do construct notions of true transgender transitioning with the inference that anyone who doesn't meet that is not valid.
One viewpoint that goes back to the earliest days of 'treatment' is the notion that a person has to have an intense disconnect with and sense of disgust at the gender they were recorded and socialized with in order to be transexual.
In other words you feel so disgusted internally about it you have to change everything around it all of the time.
The problem I have with that is most people who have never felt remotely questioning of gender themselves don't define themselves in terms of "and I am NOT and am so glad I AM a ....(/) " so much as they just are and get on with it.
In other words A girl is a girl because she is, it is what she feels.
People do when it comes to social roles and interests differ when measured against stereotypical norms so the sporty girl or the ballet loving boy are still girl and boy respectively.
To me that's more routed in gender roles and expectations as much as sadly some people are left feeling "it would be easier if I was [insert opposite gender].
The nature of transexuality is however it's not just the leaving of the social trappings of gender but implies you also wish to leave the body you were in because you want/desire the physical form of the gender you feel you are and not just at the point of wanting to 'fit in'.
People have defied convention expressing themselves or even presenting outwardly as a gender different to the one recorded without any surgery sometimes for short periods on occasions for most of their lives.
To want surgery to align yourself permanently physical to a sex (and sexuality can come into it too)  with its own attendant risks is one area where I do feel there simply has to be more in it than just being seen outwardly as that one gender as that is literally covered up where it physically counts.
This may not be everyone's view point, am sensitive to people being 'beaten with a gender stick' in their lives but do feel treating people who don't share you own view as a some evil enemy that should be prevented from having a differing point of view on it is wrong.
It's not our opinions that cause problems it is what we do with them that actually counts and causes harm.
If having a differing view causes you such emotional discomfort that you feel you have to self injure or attempt to take your lives, yes I understand your anguish but you need help for those feelings. 
Just saying "If you say that I'll take my life" is emotionally manipulative.