Being a Emotionally real inner kid and ageplay

As an adult Middle, plushies play an part in my life as objects to stroke, play and cuddle with apart from just being a part of my regressive side and Hello Kitty is one of them so I  acquired this new one last month. 

For me what people call age play has a different kind of a meaning, it's not that may not involve age playing in the sense of not being, not acting as an adult but rather while some play with characters with very fixed characteristics that may include a specific age not unlike most other kinds of role playing to me it's not role playing.

That is because I have a  "emotionally real inner kid"  who has a part in this which involves a very deep and personal connection when in age play that any adult sense of self isn't there so what you have is a fragile side of me that is looking for healing through this and so not only has child-like vulnerabilities through being at a developmental level a child but additional ones because a person in such a situation such as mentor, 'Foster parent' or Caregiver to being hurt by careless individuals who aren't sensitive to my needs being with them.

To that extent as far as is possible then for all intents and purposes, the hearts of inner children such as me should be treated with as much sensitivity as you would treat a real, biological child even if the law says the outer wrapping is 'adult'. 

The relating pattern will always be that of grown up, parent or guardian  to the child me so when you are involved at such a level emotionally to me, it needs to be an emotional commitment that is for the long haul and not just dropped when the next object of attention comes along.

When you do, you may very well be breaking the heart of someone who looked to you to protect them, to take care of you, to guard you. When that person vanishes suddenly and it has, it is disruptive to the healing process as an inner child I'm undergoing, and it does more damage than simply leaving a role playing site or just some girlfriend with which you were previously associated. 

Ready and waiting

Being in little headspace can mean and for some of us does mean we dress more little in pretty clothes with frills and bows while the rooms we may be in also have the sort of decoration you'd associate with a little or junior girl such as plushies and dollies.
Bedrooms are places that we do wait for our Caregivers  to come in give us our spankings so you might (and I have) waited on the bed with my skirt off  ready to be scolded and my knickers taken down for a paddling.
Naturally any Caregiver worth their salt will give you some great aftercare to help you through the emotional side as well as reassurance you are loved

Bagpuss

For many of us a soft saggy cat called Bagpuss provided emotional substance as it did to Emily who loved him as he was growing up and indeed we still own recordings of the show and plushies 

Growing up

The other day, Mommy said to me as we were talking about growing today she felt children missed an involved father in their lives who was strong and prepared to show them the right way to go about things.
She went on to say she felt Mommies ofter were too interested in being a friend  to their children to really discipline them.
I was flummoxed as she'd never allowed my Daddy to be My Daddy in that way even though I wanted as his daughter for him to be my 'Papa Bear', taking me in hand for spankies except when she was out and both of us would say nothing about  it.
I so wanted a man who was going to be a Father to me.

Tartan HK!

No, that's not my tartan although it's adorable but it's the jersey/skirt this lovely Hello Kitty plushie  made by Ty is wearing  that I recently bought. I take it  to work with me to make the groan up side of life a bit more bearable.
You have to be a bit careful with plushies as some of the cheap ones are made from reused materials like hospital waste and not treated so always check they are licensed from the people who have the rights for your favourite character in this case Sanriotown inc.

Also this week I finally school based anime Suzaka of which there is a feature on tagged Anime so just click on the topic index  on this blog to see it. (It doesn't bite you know!)

In other news,several of our group went to camp having a wonderful small time of it as they played  children's games and activities together. One day I may join them, you never know!
Doo joined the gang in chat on Tuesday  appearing to have a good time of it in that great mix of the serious and the random that usually leaves me in a fit of giggles ready to fall of off the chair.

I noticed outside of the usual traffic sources like GT and IK, a few people from Christie Luv's revamped site a paid a visit last week. If that's you by any chance then welcome to the World of Joanne_Chan, bookmark this blog which is super clean and if you wish, formally follow it!

And you too

One theme running across this blog is childhood or at least child-like domesticity simply because everything is rooted in a little/middles age play headspace where it is centred on my life and the lives of my friends as we grew up.
The way in which I look at things is child-like to level and I related to (other) adults as that child simply because developmentally I am incapable of much else so it ought not to be that surprising that CG/l (Caregiver/little) more commonly called DD/lg relationships where the Caregiver is the Dominant, loving 'parent' to the 'submissive' child that is you and being with others is more akin to being on a play date with parents supervising and disciplining their 'child' are more me.
As a girl who may be in trouble with another hearing a "and you too" being called over for a spanking like your friend is only just because you both have to be treated the same and that itself is rooted in our childhood lessons in such a situation.

Card Games

Hi folks!

How many of us can remember and for that matter still have playing cards from our pasts?

I sure have!

Some of my earliest memories of playing cards were of playing with Gran, who's sadly passed away several years back, such games as Snap during school break up or when my folks had to deal with groan up stuff and granny had to look after me.

I didn't have much to do with Grampa cos he was a bit crotchety and he couldn't understand my English.

At school recess we also payed card games but from the Top Trump range where from one themed pack you'd choose one subject and whoever got the most  of some criteria or other won the round and you'd begin again.

Actually when was having big problems my school friends took me to a store to buy some to help me re-intergrate with the group.

I stil have those cards and several others I've collected down the years such as these cards from the Fox TV series The Simpsons from around 1990 that came in a set of 88 cards.

The have cartoons on the front and questions on rear to ask your friends about all the characters in the show.

Enjoy.