Monday, December 22, 2008

What to call Jo?

Although I do identify more with having a Middle side to the point I would say I was a Middle with a Little side, The bigger dividing point is between being Big - the adult sense of self I lack to a large extent and that of your child-like Little Side which is very present and correct.
So to a large extent I am happy for people to call me "Little Girl" because being who I am is IN the wider umbrella of being a Little and if you seen my earlier posts, you'll know that is the one thing I most definitely am and is very much how I should be treated.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Teen uniform



It's not unknown for older schoolgirls to wear plain tights to school which with the plaid skirt she's wearing does rather work well and I suspect the school jumper is made for them as I don't think it's like the sow on school badges one had for your blazer.

As middlish teen school uniform one balance its a very good choice although it doesn't have the appeal of a traditional pinafore tunic aka Gymslip.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Chalet School

Reading is something that is very much linked to my actual childhood  and as an adult little girl remains a preoccupation of mine, loving to read story about schooldays and one series I am currently reading is the Chalet School series number sixty in total by Elinor Brent-Dyer from 1925 through 1960.
Here's a three in one omnibus edition from 1987from my meagre collection of this series.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Carefree

Really it is that carefree girl that needs to come out, the one that just runs and skips contentedly in her own little world overseen as needed feeling safe, secure and loved.
The way I see things is that's all a part of my recovering from the events of the last two years or so and understanding how it all went wrong so it can be put right.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Howl's Moving Castle

Today I'm going to talk about an anime I've always liked from 2004 and recently bought

Howl's Moving Castle is based upon the book by britisher Diana Wynne and is set in a magical world of wizardry and spells we follow the adventures of Sophie and her incredibly Odyssey to lift  a witch's curse all while being swept off her feet Howl a handsome and mysterious wizard who kindly offers her refuge in his most magical moving castle.
Howl as a character while being quite enchanting can at times by very childish, self-centred and tormented even while Sophie, is a beautiful but very reserved young woman who is rather mousey and soft-spoken.
She has a sister called Lettie but in the story she only has a small part to play as worker in the bakery and so only shows up in just one scene.
What I love about this is goes beyond the story but to director Hayao Miyzazki brilliant animation and inspirational story telling in  this art form.

Pix edit August 2017 for blu ray edition

Saturday, November 22, 2008

The twilight zone



In a lot of ways because what had happened, the failure to really engage with me emotionally to fulfill my needs including installing a sense of right and wrong or even any tangable sense of independence, I always long to go back to my past.
My past is where a good number of problems lie not least this twilight zone  when I'm not really adult but people find it hard to cope with my impulsive childishness, feeling in many ways abandoned to fate rather than being enabled to resume that journey that stopped in my early teens. I actually want somebody to spank me.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Study period

At high school and also at college, I like many of my peers, sat outside studying as we found the fresh air, natural light and space more helpful. Sometimes it might be that we went over our lesson notes perhaps correcting or adding detail to them while on other occasions we might read a text. I was kinda studious like that.
I love this girls dress too.