Christmas, review and going forward post

Surprisingly we did have presents here but in a year messed up with issues around being unwell to travel to spend days with friends, issues around other aspects of this life such as people not respecting personal presentation style influenced by modern day trends and poor communications there were some highlights.

Doing things in the "real world" to raise funds for young peoples organizations, being part of a community effort to establish place to hold Remembrance Day parades without having to go miles kind of reinforce the fact that being either little or not being opposed to having a glowing bum doesn't mean you drop out of life alltogether.

You just keep bits that don't play along so well apart.

I enjoyed some time with friends for Halloween although getting there with the train strikes here was touch and go.

I had some new stuff such as really high quality pinafores one of which I did take with me and was much appreciated having had it shortened as didn't like below the knee dresses and skirts.

I have a more juvenile shorter side that prefers them just above the knee.

I had the latest installment in the New yearbook series on record for christmas, a duran duran live album from 1982 and this years Beano annual. Bring back Jinty I say!

Because as hinted at I'm having recurring long covid based problems, I won't be updating this blog much as I'd like as some the material in all its oww-ness just won't happen if I'm bed bound as it were unless of course some one was to come with a short cane to add go faster strips to my bum!

It's not being deleted but is likely to have on a semi regular basis some expanded posts with bits that might not fly on their originals here.

Happy new year!

 

Christmas pause edition

Just a few more days to go before Christmas not being helped by feeling rather off currently, I'm slowly getting there.

Had I got better paws and  more co-ordination I'd sooner be a more domestically centred sort enjoying knitting, sowing making things sort as I find routines very helpful when it comes to feeling at ease  with things, just having things to get on with and a clear cut role.

Anyway as I've been trying to get on top of things here here's a little something for everyone before things are paused for Christmas  as it's all hands to the pump here.

Regards Jo.

To write or not to write

 

I'm supposed to be doing something with a couple of Christmas Cards but I've twisted my knee and it's really painful so I've little inclination to deal with that today but first thing tomorrow might be possible I guess.

Tree is up and we have seen Mr S Claus on his travels on the sleigh this weekend, bring much delight to all young and old as we waved back at him and with any luck we might get a nice present for being...well nice.

Probably beats being given something for people to administer a spot of correction with I guess.

Things will pause next week as things will be busy, rotten knee or not making Xmas happen.

Advent again

 It's that month again so lasting just longer than Prime Ministers these days we start the BIG COUNTDOWN.

It's entirely normal here for there to be an Advent Calendar as that's what I grew up with and not much has changed with me anyway so there won't be any groan up versions.

This time around Disney is involved and why not?

How many Disney movies have you seen at the movie theatre or on the small screen, read the novelizations of  and coloured in the colouring books reasonably neatly?

Thought so. Here we have one advent calendar that has lots of mini story books included  you can read or better still, get some one to read them to you.

 

We should be bringing down the christmas tree for its annual decoration today together with the nativity scene that we've had for over twenty-five years on its base.

Things are starting to arrive although trying to organize Xmas with poorly grump you need to run errands for and keep an eye on.

I am working on the Christmas blogging schedule so I get a rest here and on the Tumblr, final post should be December 19th according to my main notes and resumption  being around the 26th.

I'm unsure if we'll do the blog on Xmas day thing this year with it being a Sunday and things here a bit up in the air.

Anyway, see you next week!

Advent edition

Well, it's a brand new Month tomorrow which by coincidence  also marks the start of the great countdown otherwise known as Advent which from childhood always was a magical thing aided by having a calendar.

 
Way back then, they were card based  with you pulling back a flap to uncover various things and at least in our house, nominally religious in character.

 This is a very nomable which is currently atop of a short floor standing bookcase facing the front room window cos I don't care anymore. 

 
A middle lives in this house and does stuff like this apart from colouring her Frozen colouring in most days!

 
Just open a door each day, eat some chocolate and see the days before Christmas go before your very eyes.

Here I'm always back in time, probably cos I never really went forward.

 

That's how I see me in my head in a lot of respects and anyone expecting much else is likely to have a very very long wait.

Wet ramblings

Greetings from Kitty Towers.

It's a bit of a damp weekend so I wasn't out Saturday although The Grump was which was a relief about the earache following getting a letter to say gas was going up three times and I really don't need constant background noise as much as obviously it is a concern especially for those less well off compared with ourselves.

It's hardly surprising then  that you're back to reading books of the sort that not only written for an audience that I share the same reading age with but the same sorts of topics that such stories centre upon.

It may sound odd but I feel so much more at home sat on a floor reading or playing with groan ups around than the whole older child in chair discussing more grown up topics with them, not least with the craziness of the adult political landscape and issues galore with the FIFA World Cup in Qatar when it comes to soccer.

 

There's always music to be played here, just don't ask how many records or compact discs they're are, a good many hundred is the short answer but that was what I was doing as a kid back home anyway.

That arrived yesterday late morning, a "audiophile" lp pressing in its slip case of Michael Jackson's Thriller album that's celebrating its fortieth birthday which I'd have to say sounds better than my original copy with really quiet surfaces brought very much in the day.

Expensive, hell yes, but if you loved the music then this is the best it gets on the original vinyl and it'll last you a lifetime if you care for it properly.

Then on Sunday there was the last two chapters of Castle Hangnail! by Ursula Vernon in story time which saves reading it off the page apart from being more like the story times we had at school then.

Ciao!

A post of updates

 There we go another Wednesday and another post here.

I'm a bit better than I was people and thanks for the comment left last week, being able to be about a bit more if not fully recovered which did mean I got outdoors to hear the Last Post on Armistice Day from the local Cenotaph being played.

I have walked a short distance this week, going slowly and avoiding jerky actions.

I did have some trouble with an international order whose arrival here got messed up by Hermes as in not arrived but did get my not inconsiderable money back from Ebay after putting a complaint in.

At the site where various stories are read in real time we almost but not quite finished Camp Hangnail by Ursula Vernon with just the last chapter to finish off which has been quite a gripping story about witches, minions, and one fantastic castle.

I struggled with Dragonheart  by the same author probably due to my poor for age reading comprehension and poor short term memory that makes holding on lots of details in a passage hard going.

That seemed to me me written for a Sci-Fi geek.

See you all next week!

Paused edition

 

I could sit by this table all day having a coffee and possibly the next given I'm immobile presently, unable to go out doors and struggling getting about indoors being off my feet. 

It all began early Monday morning in bed and it is taking its time recovering which tends to bring the more negative bits of my attitudes to the fore cos I just prefer being able to do things and soon get frustrated waiting for others to do stuff for me.

It's not that there isn't stuff I could do like read my comics and books it's just I like being active really instead and I can't put records on which is a bit limiting especially when you're expecting a new one any day soon.

Fun and Games edition

Seeing it's the annual Greenland's Bonfire and ghoulish weekend to which a number of my friends are attending, I thought I'd add something from a far as a contribution in kind to that magical spirit.

Pumpkins will be carved making them into lanterns, food will no doubt be consumed and finally that there bonfire will be lit which I think is a British tradition.

It was a bit late finishing Saturday night so we weren't in bed until Sunday morning but then we lost an hour with changing back to GMT which really affected my "spoons" later on.

We did go before people departed for an enjoyable meal at a local gastropub which was extremely tasty and also relatively inexpensive

 

Meanwhile all the stores are gearing up to Christmas time getting new stock  in and starting the promotions for toys and games which kinda reminded me of one we used to play both at school and at home.

The great thing about Junior Scrabble the word based games is there are two tways of playing.Younger players can begin with the exciting, ‘Words and Pictures’, a game expressly created to help with the recognition and formation of complex words. 

someone has mastered that there's ‘Rainbow Scrabble’, which is the more challenging version intended for younger players of age seven and upwards. 

The scoring system is identical to the ‘grown-up’ version, yet far easier to use and keep track of. In a clever move both games are also conveniently located on each side of the board, making it easy to swap from ‘Words and Pictures’ to ‘Rainbow Scrabble’.

Feeding the famished affections

Bits that matter have at times been ignored in this blog because other bigger topics have predominated at times and one is the importance of the relationship between any adult with responsibilities and me as the the adult child.

It isn't enough to say "I'm the adult here" you need to explain carefully about what has concerned you about me and my life whither or not it is because I have been unwell and we all know I was earlier this year for instance  or it is because you needed to chastise me because of things I said or did that impacted on other people or even just me.

It matters that you reveal your love and care for and about me so I cannot mistake that concern for just you just wanting the upper hand with me, that there really is a serious point to all of this.

It is about words, it is about deeds but above all it is about feelings, feelings you can share and make sure I really get by your cuddles, hugs and other aspects of the physical expression of your love and affection.

Given some of the terrible things that have happened in my life, this really matters.

Lending support

 

I've never really been much of a one for cheerleading anyone or anything really as if they or it were the total answer to what might of been needed probably because I'm more accustomed to very much nuanced thought processes.

Things tend to have pluses and minus's in my world be they ideas or the people who bring them in and so alternatives are seldom without merit so things may be more finally balanced for me than perhaps others.

Sometimes people think you're not loyal, totally behind things but for the difference between success and failure lies in having a sense of proportion and the preparedness to seek advice before committing oneself to a course of action and to use it.

It can also mean that when things are just not turning out right, having the humility to accept that and change course before being overtaken by events.

Online welfare

 

Today's message is simple.

Try to spend less time staring at that thing as if your live depended upon it.

Keep tabs on what sort of content comes in your your stream: does it it make you anxious, depressed or feel like self harming?

Is it keeping you up at night?

Try to find people who you can trust to talk about what you've seen if it's troubling you.

If a site is a worry because of things like child pr0n, inappropriate content or otherwise harmful report it.

That's all folks!

The topsy turvey week

 

It's a New Month although I not sure about celebrating the fact with all this chaos and worry about like my mate Money going down the pan last week when someone appeared to get their sums badly wrong.

I mean if I said I'd let some one pay less but borrow the money cover it without showing how I'd repay you do you think they'd just let me do that.

Sometimes you need to borrow money because letting things just contract could cost us more in the longer term but you do need to transparent about it because ultimately it comes from other people.

That thankfully seems to have stopped after last weeks mayhem but it does make me wonder just what of  guidance they get.

I'm just glad my money has some value now.

Going for a spin

 

Girls of a certain age will get this totally, knowing the lp record jackets they are holding although the discs are North American albums not issued over here but we are in a a students flat, enjoying a party.

There is something very sociable in music being a shared thing between a group of people which people talk about, play in each others company and maybe go to live performances together.

Now one beauty of the lp - this is being typed as I'm actually playing records right now - is the bigger tapestry for album art and ease of reading any notes which are common place on Jazz and Classical recordings concerning the compositions and performances you are hearing.

I find when I am not well, which sadly isn't uncommon to play something brings back pleasanter memories apart from being soothing if one takes suitable precautions to avoid loud volumes.

My record deck has an auto off which means if I drift of to sleep it will stop and lift the arm back up so needle and record isn't harmed although compact disc is more "idiot proof" apart from potentially program lengths before needing to be changed over.

How or what you may collect is personal - I have popular compilations that are ideal for putting on when radio may be playing stuff you don't like  or for just drifting back in time to outside of artists in popular music and Composers for Jazz and Classical but having something you can touch and play is just magical.

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Somethings afoot!

Different kind of a week when it came to events in the background as much as we did have a bit more of "normal tv" in the final days rather than wall to wall live coverage of events connected to the death of our Queen.

You can understand it but there are times when it gets a bit too much as much as it act as a bit of a primer to how our constitution works, an aid to study.

Sometimes I just don't know what gets over me like apart from getting bratty I shot through two requests to take stuff to and empty the bin.

That resulted in the loopy cane making an appearance while over a lap with my knickers taken down and another caning a couple of days later just in case I thought it wasn't so bad after all.

On the other side I did some cute kitty socks which were cool!

Going back with events

 

While with other events in country in this last few days have taken us back us back a few decades or so and give us reason to look ahead to changes, this week I'm going back to twenty ten.

I was rather experimenting with looks beyond that had initially inspired me such as more formal office wear or the stuff of my schooldays, the blessed school uniform.

Things more Goth or Emo were more it so I had short  net like skirts, tops and over the knee ringer type socks although I did experiment also with wearing stockings with them.

Ditto lace up canvas shoes or heels although I tend to be rather wobbly on the feet with limited control of their movement.

It was a bit before the tartan micro skirts started to come in and with the netting underneath could give you a far bit of modesty although obviously you do mind how you sit.

Confidence and true motives

 

While the country adapts to this weeks political changes I'm going with a different  topic altogether.

One thing that causes many of us problems is the lack of confidence in ourselves which may be around active steps we take or just what we draw from other peoples reactions  that may have little really to do with what we've done.

Many of us can recall that advice we got, often from mothers or grans to try to be friendly and be nice around people around us no matter what they may say or do and yet it seems we are ignored or misjudged.

We may think it's about how we ourselves present or somehow we don't cut it in the looks department but is it that?

The more times around the sun I travel, the more I feel this is often with the person themselves, how nothing and nobody ever meets their expectations and our kindness isn't seemingly enough however hard we try.

While not falling into the trap of overvaluing ourselves, perhaps instead we should stop expecting others to notice but just try to be our best selves more for acting right for pure reasons is better standard rather than kickbacks?

E for effort

 Tales from the past as the return to school looms.

I was never that good at gymnastics of any sort not that we didn't try anything and everything the others were doing with the advantages of two fully functional legs and at least a modicum of co-ordination.

The overall philosophy was one of everyone takes part regardless and has to try all to which any "but miss my..." tended to get short firth asthmatic, disabled didn't come into it and so I did encounter the vaulting horse.

It was never easy to get over it without ending up on the floor although back then if you gave the impression you put nothing into it you were likely to feel warm glow delivered to your rear and a public lecture.

I preferred the Games part of the curriculum

Safety and submissiveness

 

Today's entry is a bit different than some from the recent past although going way back in time in other places it was the kind of thing that I was prepared to talk about and that point blog sites were less "prissy" about what could be published.

Submissiveness is something I think most of this blogs readers would be aware of, the extent to which we may be prepared to do something that may not of been at our instigation and to just accept what another may do upon us.

It can come in different guises and I'm not inclined to say how your live should be lived.

For some of us, as Littles we may be happy to hand over a chunk of upper (adult) decisions and responsibilities to a Big because it gives us the mental space to just be our own child pursuing our playfulness to wherever it does knowing we'll be looked after when say it comes to stopping to take any medical treatments or pulled away for spanking if in our playfulness we've got out of hand.

For others this can run into notions of being "made" to dress in certain ways, such as a "maid" (great pun,eh!), sexy bimbohead, being treated in ways that outsiders would see as humiliating (and some people do like it surprisingly enough) or even just being "used" in a sexual way.

Some things in that last set do have some clear risks, one reason why some communities have codes based around advanced consent even if may appear to be "forced" and the use of safe words if what was agreed at the outside is not from a psychological or physical sense "safe" at the time and so on.

Given the amount of interest shown around them clearly whatever our own ideas about what we'd do, they are meeting a need some people have.

The one area I do feel we need to very cautious over are things that involve allowing others direct access to our money as some forms of domination involve financial extortion or the use of personal details and photographs for blackmail

Some might fantasize about it - a common form is that of the deliberately outed "sissy" - but could that person really deal with the in real life consequences such as losing jobs, friends and damage within their families never mind losing their home?

You may enjoy life as a little, some like being in certain respects more of a doll, a plaything that  ultimately that individual buys into but certain elements need really thinking about because the risks are very high and hard to escape.

Acting on your submissiveness is okay but do stay safe.

Getting the balence right

 

I'm slowly catching up after this long super hot period reduced me to a puddle of inactivity as it was so hot I struggled to even concentrate which as we all know was never my strong point.

I mean I could of got a degree in not concentrating and otherwise not paying any attention to anything although the usual way of dealing with that might of been too much for a Grown Up too as everyone seems to had struggled so it's not just an adult little girl thing!

She's showing a look I sometimes do, that of the "When is this gonna stop?"  look as you just carry on until think I've got the point with the sniffles, attempted apologies as your bottom is burning.

Sometimes you just have to go to that point to get us to make the change.

Respecting limits is sensible but you need to keep your senses open to gauge when you got far enough as to underspank can be as bad in its way as to go overboard we just cease to really take anything in.

Summer Melts

 

An overload of cuteness is something I am prone to having a long term addiction to all things Sanriotown for a long time, from tote bags to all manner of things

I quite love sugary sweet pink in tops, short kittenish skirts and accessories so if it was given its fullmost expression then you'd need to wear sunglasses all year round and not just on summer days like these.

I was also into Care Bears, probably cos the message resonated strongly with me liking cartoons a lot.

I mean I seldom watch adult tv these days as little really interests me unless say it's arts or history based with nothing changing much over the years.

The clock has stopped.

Can we have a sports revolution, Miss?

 

We're going through the summer splurge of sports with the Commonwealth Games currently taking place here in the West Midlands and of course we have had the Final of the Women's Uefa championships in which England did actually win.

Sports and girls has a mixed connection as every sooften we have reports saying how girls drop out of sports in their teens with various things such as a preoccupation with hair, not wanting to sweat, body image issues (but there's a massive problem around sexual images sent by girls to boys!) and lack of role models.

Then consider girls (and women's) football which has risen in popularity over the last five years and in which as I recall officially younger next no girl ever got the ball in the school playground which so binary divided it was bloomin' unreal with approved/unapproved activities for boys and girls just on grounds of gender.

That was often compounded by rigid gender division in team games which meant for many boys had to play cricket and even now in a good number of secondary schools football isn't an option even as girls only team sport.

That was picked on by a number of commentators on Monday, will schools see the success and following by teen girls of the game, their involvement in the game outside of school and make that change.

It wasn't so long a go their was a vogue for pushing personal exercise plans rather than the games element in school sports suggesting all girls wanted to do was excercises.

Apart from seeing improvements within the game, I hope school sports departments grasp the nettle and make participation in P.E. and Games more fun for every child with opportunities for all whatever they're interested in.

Awareness or Up Yours!

Conversations don't always run the way you anticipate.

It may be that for whatever a reason you didn't see you were crossing a firm line with someone  either because the tone was such it was "low voltage" failing to register that "back off" feeling.

It might of been that having done that you still felt you were wronged and could negotiate, mouthing off ignorant that your very words were being heard loud and clear.

I've sometimes been known to mouth off with a distinct lack of awareness of just how disrespectful it was not least with me being very much the junior partner in this situation.

Sometimes you just have to call us back for an an additional spanking to make sure we've really learned our lesson and just who is in charge.

Warm thoughts

 I think I'll start by thanking two people for their comments on last weeks entry which seems to have made an impression.

This isn't the most usual of weeks to be honest  hiding away from the sun as temperatures are set to reach at least 38 degrees C and I believe in some parts even 41 degrees which for some is 104 degrees F which is pretty darn hot.

I had next to no sleep last night the indoor temperatures were more akin to an indoor kiln  which is most unusual.

Obviously keeping cool matters so I was in my short thin nightdress last night and today am in lightweight sports attire today mirroring what is happening in some schools.

There was point where I did do more Goth  short skater type skirts, thigh high stockings forms of presentation and it still tugs at me. Perhaps something like that would still work?

My Beliefs on school uniforms

School Uniform & The Girl.

This is for anyone interested in age regression and the use of school uniform in this lifestyle… This is not for minors or non consenting adults.

This also is for those who may be born or assigned as male who do not wish to transition full time such as cross dressers or others such as feminine boys who might prefer emulating the look but have no desire to be that girl.

Pronoun usage assumes female but of course where appropriate can be switched to male (he/him).

I am a firm believer in getting your little girl in the right mindset, and what more could be better then dressing her in the correct clothes for her age group she is… I think the key clothing item in her wardrobe, should be her school uniform… Personally I believe this shouldn’t be kept for special occasions.,but to be used for every day wear after doing her adult activities or even on days off, as well has for punishment nights and weekends…

Uniform & Rules

Now this is my personal preference so by no means is this the same for ever care giver out there however you can use this has a guideline to build your own uniform around and rules if you are a little or middle on your own…

Uniform.

Skirt……(Jersey, skater, fully pleated)

White blouse…(long sleeve)

Jumper… (long sleeve)

Tie…(The colour is up to you)

Socks… (Ankle and knee)

Underwear… (briefs mini plus high leg, vests, seamless croptop and a T shirt bra)

Footwear… (flats no heels)

Optional extras:

Tights… (60+ opaque tights, wool tights, only from October to April)

Blazer… (The colour is up to you)

Pinafore Dress. (September to April)

Gingham Summer Dress (April to September)

Top: Summer gingham dress, socks and knickers.

Below: Pinafore dress,blouse, tie, socks, underwear and shoes… With a good strap to boot. 

My personal favourite colours are grey , charcoal and navy blue… And green yellow tie or blue and white tie… But these are my favourites, but you could also use them….

So what rules would I have??

My rule are fairly simple:

Hair tied up in a pony tail, plate or pig tails.

No heavy makeup.

No nail polish.

One set of studs per ear.

One ring per finger.

Simply chain pedant.

No thongs, g strings or adult underwear.

I’m a big fan of keeping the girls uniform has current has possible. What do I mean by this? Well if the girl goes out in public she isn’t going to stand out to much so they feel in step with the times and can easily blend into the environment .

I hope you find this helpful when planning or thinking about a uniform.

Moving on

 While sometimes it seems things seem to come in threes after this weekends close  encounter with four wheels this weeks theme is a bit different.

After the odd comment, I think the thing to be looked at more is refinding balance and unity in this life after everything in the last few months which of necessity has been talked about here.

One the first is you may see a fair bit of people but the fact you do does not make them friends, that kind of depth shown in inquiring without physically seeing how you are, actually caring for (and not mistaking that with being seen as a carer of) and keeping informed in a open transparent way matters just is not and seems was never part of things.

No, it was a loose agglomeration of aquaintances who may of been friends of each other but that circle didn't include you because they kept in touch by means you didn't have or belong to.

Going forward it seems to me that if I want friends that do what I always expected and expected to do for them one has to look beyond there, create your own and follow where that goes.

It doesn't mean rejection of all previous contact but an acceptance that how things may of appeared were not as they may of seemed and what I may feel I need to sustain me emotionally is best looked for beyond them.

There is life beyond the box if you look for it.

Reflections on events to come

 

Is it too much for people to see how it is their perceptions of you lead to the situation you and you alone are "the problem", the one who can't just be like the others because you are not made that way even in other ways they are not either?

That people operate such under the radar systems of communication, indirect, often in places and settings away from you with no transparency from start to finish you are expected to know just how to respond and when by.

If you are so ill you are point you are unable to communicate for a period, no one inquires just how you are or reminds you about anything they know more about than you do so all you hear is "we heard nothing".

I'd put it another way: Frankly knowing what you do, you don't care much one way or another, another name another number on a list, it really didn't matter to you. 

Mission was accomplished and so that's how its always been. 

You are left feeling "the problem" was you and it will never stop. Were you ever really in the group?

At Midnight all happens

 To be honest I haven't been too great since Sunday when an appalling error by the groan ups really messed my stomach up and presently I'm in migraine patch for good measure.

It's hardly surprising then my thoughts are back to bed literally with shared dorms where conversations were a lot more closer than in classroom away from the influence of teachers and the like and so we pretty much knew each other inside out.

We'd arrange secret parties, practice doing our hair and make up on each other, have pillow fights and compare notes on our friends.

It's a reason that whole era remains evocative with me and the recreation in the context of being little figures with games at midnight and mysterious things under the door or in the corridors.

Be the change

It's a summer's day after the weekend that saw me playing with one gender variant child and having a blast for just going more with who you really are are than any set roles and that while everyone looked on and just accepted the scene.

No one seriously expects rounds of applause for being you however you are and everybody has an opinion however well informed on everything and that includes us but all you need to do is allow the space for everyone to be themselves.

And that's what we had from people brought up in the boys and girls do "this" and wear "that" era with all it's policing in the playground and in some families to extreme lengths that weekend.

I just felt privileged to spend time with them.

I'm just cleaning a replacement record by paw and it hasn't half removed a load of dust and other debris from deep in the groove after some 40 years!
 

Bits of Little Related stuff

 There are a couple of things on my mind and they do kind of connect of which one is really about what we call milestone ages, the ones society feels are like super important and so put a lot into marking such as your 18th birthday and say your fortieth.

Recently a friend who had made the chronological four-zero really found themselves really upset to feel they'd ceased to be young and it has harder to hide being more of a child in some ways when people think you're an aunt or uncle to a child.

The thing you to remember is not just is that age is just a number but also appearance as it applies to notions of age differs - some look a good decade or more younger and others conversely may look older and really that child-like you in middle will always be there no matter how many years elapse from your actual birth.

The other thing is I'm just not happy with how my blog is going at **sml cos like Tumblr there's a reblogging culture but recently I found over 100 reblogs just blocked going right back to 2019, many with own thoughts and commentary on them that in their words were found to breach their rules or had been deleted.

Given from the start they always were deleting stuff that wasn't okay on a "adult site" it seems odd you'd find that many new ones to remove and that perhaps they are thinking they can monitarize posts by wiping anything that may get in the way of getting people who do commercial photoshoots although some 80% at least is reblogs from the well known spanking related companies.

Spanking frankly is the only reason I got an account there following the Tumblr purge of November and December 2018 and yet keeping a well curated blog being ultra cautious on content given they took out a picture of child's toy on a post around age regression with no child present.

And Age Regression and CG/l are the elephants in that sites room as they don't easily fit into post 2018 Tumblr for being too near Adult Content and yet appear to be too close to actual child interests even if you do keep actual children out of any images posted.

For us Spanking posts can and and do live next to say dollies, colouring and "little girl" or "little boy" styled outfits that we may wear as legal adults.

I just wonder of keeping one updated is worth the effort when I'm not always well.

Time for some Nielsen

Bit of a dull start to the day here with heavy rain as I've twanged my right calf again so I'm hobbling about following the streaming at Confuzzled, the UK premier furry event where my brother and several of my friends are at in Birmingham in the West Midlands of England.

Recently I picked up this box set following an exploration of Scandinavian music

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Carl Nielsen was born on the Danish island of Funen on June 9th 1865, taking up music playing and attending the Royal Danish Academy of Music and is regarded as the pre-eminent composer of that country and died in 1931. His earlier works were inspired by Grieg and Brahms.

He wrote 6 symphonies all of which tended  to be around the half hour length  were written between 1892 and 1925 and have a number of common characteristics such as the prominence of the role of brass instruments  and unusual changes in tonality that have the effect of heightening the dramatic feel.

That's one reason why I wanted the whole set  and this one recorded around the 1990's bot only features the superb playing of the San Francisco Symphony Orchestra  but also  an excellent warm sounding recording.

I've transferred these recordings in Lossless full cd quality for my Fiio X3 digital music player

Drop that old disguise

 

There are times when I feel the best thing for any little would be to toss aside the many layers of sophistication we may of felt pushed in the direction of while trying to cover over this side of us such as the fascination in being on top of news and celebratory gossip.

Just switch off the phone and computer, put on simple outfit like a pinafore dress and place yourself on a largish bed or the floor with some plushies, simple blocks with letters or patterns and a colouring book and let it all out in play.

Be engrossed in it, make "silly" noises, create dialogue for your toys while you play.

 Go on nature walks skipping, jump in a puddle, even try writing a note to your grown up side telling them just how you feel about being hidden.

The only you that matters is the authentic one.

Looking ahead

It's summer not that you'd associated this time of year with just what it is bouncing off the windows this morning as I get on with typing this up.

Summer brings thoughts around Holidays and times away very much in mind as in the past we'd go on a picnic together towards the end of the month out of doors so you'd have to be a little discrete when it comes to how you show your little side with all the "muggles" about with family and that but it was fun.

That would include taking lots of tips such as those shown above.

Foot spray was certainly something I and others used in the office  to cool and freshen up our feet

Packing should I be getting away in July is another with restrictions on the absolute number of items I can carry and the weather.

Like most of 2018 it was so hot it was thin tops and light gingham dresses on near enough all the time apart from outdoor sports.

I suspect it'll be looking at the long range forecast and hoping for the best.